My first love...21 years ago

[fictionman]

I came to Spore to work in 1990 as a waiter at one of the leading hotels in Orchard rd....It was an eye opening experience for me as I came from a small town in Msia..Also this is the first time I was away from my parents & living alone...It was both a frightening & joyous occassion...Frightening coz have to take care of myself for the first time without my parents but was a joyous occassion coz finally I can live my life the way I want without parents nagging..I was only 20 at tt time...Luckily for me we were put up in a hostel with other Msians...Tt made my transition very much easier...We quickly became friends...There were a few guys & girls living together...We went out together in a group a few times to explore Spore...Still remember we went to catch the movie "Ghost" at Chinatown Point..Now this place is demolish aldy like other old things here lol..We treat each other like bros & sis...Not tt the girlz were not pretty but there was no "feel"...It was better this way as we all live peacefully without conflicts...After a few mths some of us began to date other colleagues...But I just flirt here & there with a few colleagues of mine but nothing serious...It was easy to befriend the girls as almost all of them were students wrkin part time to earn some pocket money...I was amaze to how easy it was to be friends with them lol...I was a allboys school so we dont have much gal friends haha..Working shift wrk was fun...7 to 3...3 to 11..11 to 7...Mths went by without anyone tt caught my eye...Of coz there are some eye candy temp staff but we nothin came out of it...Then one fine day when I was wrking the 3pm to 11pm shift, a new cashier started work...She was shown ard the hotel by the chief cashier & was eventually led to the coffeehouse which I was wrking tt day...& tt was the first time i saw M...

TBC...

[fictionman]

When I first saw her,she's just like a normal girl wz specs...Nothing to shout abt..Was intro to her & we just say hi to each other..Days went by & I didnt saw M...then one day while i was wrking the afternoon shift,I came across a photo album in the drawer of the outdoor cafe where I was wrkin tt day..It was picz of M while she was in Tioman...Ask one of the cashier when did she went there & she told me just b4 she started wrk here...from the pics she seems to be alone & so probe further & got to know she went there alone bcoz she was heartbroken coz she found out tt her bf was 2 timing her..So she pack up her thingz & book a trip to Tioman to clear her mind..When she came back Tioman she quit her job at Leica & join the hotel line...After hearing her storiees I somehow feel sad for her..But I didnt really have anny feelings for her watsoever...till few days later when I saw her minding the cashier counter...I ask her abt the pics..tell her tt she look pretty & all...From there we became friends..We seems to get along well coz we can talk abt anything..Suddenly while we were talking i menyion tt long time nvr went to the movies & jokingly ask her if she would like to see a movie wz me..jokingly i say i might hug her & hold her hands if she feels cold la...She smile & say its ok if i do tt but i know she was only joking...Then at nite while we were waiting for the co bus to sent us home coz we finish at 1am,i ask her if our movie date is on & she say why not...I was abit suprise she say yes but happy..So we fix a day & we went to see "Silence of The Lamb"...Purposely choose this show hoping she mightbe scared lol...So we went to see it but I didnt hold her hands like i said i would...First time went out with a girl dont knw what to do haha..we just talk only...Went for a few more moviez incl "Edward Scissorshand" & still i didnt hold herhand!!!...after tt show i suggest why dont we go for another show again at Prince cinema..It was a HKG RA movie...forgot the title damm!!!!...Anyone knw Hkg Ra movies shown in 1991 lol....movie came & gone & nothing happen...Then as we were making our way out of the cinema which was damm pack,ppl were pushing & then I grab her hand & walk hand in hand out of the cinema...i jokingly ask her if she wats me to let go of her hand & she shyly say NO...hhmmm...I was over the moon as we walk fm the cinema to City Hall mrt...saw her off in the west bound train & then I took bus back to Serangoon a happy man.....

TBC..

[Buaygan]

Bro= please continue your story, do not stop...thanks

[scorpionnn]

Ts, pls continue, but 1 request pls... Pls key "Enter" after few lines? Age catching up lah...

[IBCBen]

Ts, pls continue, but 1 request pls... Pls key "Enter" after few lines? Age catching up lah...

Ya need to break up the paragraphs a bit. Too .. congested

[BoundToBio]

Do continue your story! Very interesting!

[fictionman]

Thanks for reading my story...I will "Enter" aft a few paragraph haha...my eye sight also getting bad lol...will continue later

[fictionman]

On the way home I was thinkin if we have become a couple??!!...My mind was confuse coz I nvr heard fm her tt she hv broken off wz her bf...Only heard fm her colleague they hv split up coz the guy hv gone on to another girl...Thgh I wanted to hear it fm her abt her situation but I didnt pursue the matter

Maybe I was too happy to knw the truth fm her...I just take it tt they hv broken up aldy..When I reach home she called me...We hv been talking on de phone prior to this nite...We would be talking for at least 2 hrs b4 saying our gdnites...I told her I was very happy tonite & she also says tt she is very happy tt I finally hold her hand after goin out for abt 3 times...But after tt nite we couldnt talk for hours on the phone anymore coz singtel hv alter their billing system...Previously we just pay a mthly subscription and can talk for hours without additional cost...

But singtel hv alter the billing to per min billing!!!...It would cost a bomb to talk for hours each nite...Anyway since we hv become a couple we would meet each other daily aft our shift...But stimes our shift is not tt same...So we make it a point to meet each other for awhile if our shift are different...Just to hv a meal would make our day...Then one day she said she wanted to work part time on her day off in the cafe just to be with me...Of coz I was happy as I could see her...

On the very 1st time she work together wz me she gave me a letter & tell me to read in private...I was like "What is this??""...Before I could say athing she explain tt after reading the letter & I dont wat to be with her anymore,she would understand my decision..

That sentence gave me a shock...I dont knw what to think or react..She was tremblin abit when she hand me the letter...My mind was a total blank...Inside I was temblin also...What could the content of the letter be so important that she fear tt I might leave her..Many things cross my mind...Did she hv some kind of sickness...Could she hv a kid aldy??!!...Could she wat sthing fm me??!!

The coffeehouse was pack wz ppl bcoz it was a Saturday Hi-Tea time...After she pass me the letter she continue with her work...I was rooted at the spot..Aft abt 10 seconds my manage to compose myself & go to tell my supervisor I need to go for a toilet break...I need to read the letter so bad but at the same time I was scared...Then I made my way to the toilet wz the letter in my hand...Wz a deep breath I open the letter slowly...

TBC..

[BenjiGlory]

Thank you. Much better .

[eeemen]

Do carry onz pls, curious to find out what she wrote that could cause you to reconsider her? cheers ......................

[fictionman]

Slowly I open the one piece letter...Read the first line & it says "I dont knw how to tell you"....As I read on I got to knw tt she is in fact engage but she says its all over now in tt relationship..I was abit taken aback abt her engagement...But the real reason what she wanted to tell me is tt she is not a virgin...To her losing her virginity is meant for her husband to be but now tt she hv broken up wz him she is worried tt I would mind abt this..As I was a newbie in a relationship,I dont knw wat to think...I mean I was like dont mind or dont care abt it...At tt point I was like no big deal to me rite...But aft reading on & see how she fear I would mind her past makes me love her more..Here is a girl who truly wats to tell you her past & hope tt I would accept her the way she is...I shed a tear...but was also happy tt its not sthing more serious..

The last sentence tt she wrote was she hv lost her bf & now she is afraid tt she might lose me as well...I quickly went out of the loo to find her...from afar I could see her looking at me nervously...She knew I had read her letter...As I walk towards her amid a crowd of hungry sporeans eating their hi-tea,I smile at her...Once she was face to face wz me I hold her hand...

I told her its ok dear...I accept you as you are...Whats past is past...We shld look foward to our lives together...Her tears roll down her cheeks..She was so relieve tt I hv accepted her...Ppl ard us was wondering why is a waiter cryin...As more tears continue to flow she ran to the toilet to compose herself

Aft we hv ended our shift we were officially a couple very much in love..Though for me as this is my first love didnt really knw what to do...But bcoz we were both similar in our character it was easy for us to communicate...We would go for movies..eating together .doin stuff couple do...I was so happy...At tt time I was thinkin to myself could she be the one I will spend the rest of my life with???...Could my very 1st love be my love of a lifetime...Just like the lyrics of the song by Firehouse "Love of A Lifetime" I finally found the love of a lifetime...A love to last my whole life through...

One day after our shift endec at 11pm,we went Swing Spore at Orchard Rd...Those were the good ole days when we had this kind of party...We went in a group...After dancing & singing on the streets we went to Satay Club ard Marina for supper...After supper we wanted to catch a cab & make our way home...I told M I would see her off 1st before I go back with my roomates

But she told me she dont wat to go back to her home..She wats to stay at my place...Needless to say I was shock but happy...Then we hop into the cab & towards Upp Serangoon Rd...My roomates was shock tt M is following me back...As we have 4 rooms..2 for guys & 2 for girls,I told her she could sleep at one of the empty beds in the girls room...She look at me & says tt she dont mind bunking in with me...We all have double decker beds & mine was on the top bunk...Very small I told her...But she says she dont mind...I was like a kid having his first toy...Over the moon...We wash up & after talking abit in the hall proceed to our room...I help her up the bed & then I made my way up...Abit awkard for me coz this is the first time I'm sharing a bed with a girl the whole nite thru...We snuggle & kiss goodnite..

TBC...

[Admiral]

Please continue.

[fictionman]

As we were kissing it got more passionate...My hands were all over her body but I stop short of going for her shorts which was borrowed fm my roomates...Then I pull her hand to my crotch & she was rubbing it & of coz my cock was harden...Once in awhile we hv to stop coz my roomate was sleeping below coz he was moving...Then we continue wz our petting session & I suddenly pull down my shorts & she touch my harden cock...To my suprise she took her hand away from my cock & look into my eyes saying she is not ready yet..I respected her decision & pull up my shorts..

We stop petting & snuggle...It was such a wonderful feeling to hv a girl to snuggle up to...Then she whisper to me am I angry wz her??..I told her NO...But I was a little bit dissapointed which I try not to show her...Then ee sleep in each others arms...Pure magic..Morning came & we woke up together..

I lead her out of the room & a few of my roomates were suprise to see M spending the nite..One of them whisper to me "wah so fast ah bro"...I just smile at him...As I hv made plans wz one of my guy roomate to watch "Terminator 2" as it was our off day,I told M abt it...She says go ahead coz she is wrking the afternoon shift & she can go to work wz my female roomates...

At first I was abit hesitant to go for the show but she insisted I go as her spending the nite there was a sudden decision & I hv promise my friend in advance aldy...Then wz a heavy heart I went early for Arnie's show but I told her "I'll Be Back"...Weeks past & M once in awhile would spend the nite at my place...

Think on the 4th time she slept over at my place,we finally make love...She didnt resisted me...It was pure magic...She rode me & we did the missionary...At tt time I wasnt thinkin abt condom & she ssk me to wear one...I hv to be careful as not to get her pregnant as both of us are under work permit & if she is pregnant the work permit will be cancelled...But I was having such a good time tt all this didnt cross my mind...When its time for me to cum I came on her body...It was such a fantastic sensation being able to make love to yr love one...

Then during lunch time we went to Sentosa for sightseeing & cycling...When nite comes I sent her back...We didnt talk abt the sex as I dont want to give her a bad impression I wanted more but of coz as a guy I do wat more...We would sit down opposite marina square where the floating stadium is now...Back then it was a make out place for couples sitting by the seaside...We were no exception...Kissing & hands roaming all over...Once she gave me a love bite on my neck...

Ask her why she did tt & she said she wats other girls to knw I hv a GF aldy...I laugh & in return planted my love bite on her neck...We came to this area often to talk & at one such time I mention wouldnt it be nice to go KL for holiday...Then she said I wat her to go wz me is it??..She read my mind & I nooded YES...So we plan our holiday in a month's time..

After tt we went back to my place where she would sleepover again...I try pull down her shorts while we were making out on the bed...Suddenly she say today cannot as she was having her period...Then out of the blue she pull down my shorts & gave me a blow job...After awhile I told her I was abt to cum & then she kept on blowing me until I CIM...Tt was my first cim xperience & wat an xperience it was...Not done she swallow it up & quickly came to lie down on my chest...I say why she do tt but she kept quiet...Then she said she has nvr swallow b4 but only tasted it abit only...

TBC...

[JohnnyStorm]

Waiting for next installment .

[IBCBen]

Nice story ! Is she your wife now ? If not you really should go bang wall if you let go such a wonderful gf :p

[fictionman]

Soon our holiday in KL is upon us...We finish our shift at 3pm...Went to JB to catch our respective bus...She's going back to her home town,Teluk Intan, & me to my hometown in Ipoh..She will come over to Ipoh after a few days & we will catch a bus to KL 2gether...But before we parted in JB we had a small argument...I ask her if she's going to visit her ex-bf parents who are staying in her hometown...She said yes

I was abit unhappy abt this..But she said they knw abt their engagement so its only right she pay them a visit...I was afraid they might brain wash her...But she says its only a courtesy visit...She scolded me for making her cry over this matter...I admit I get agitated easily but always manage to cool down aft few mins...Hence aft I hv cool down I apologize to her..She's ok aft tt...But she said tt she dont wat to go on the bus alone if she's sad over this matter...

I try to console her & it works...Board her bus together and lead her to her seat...Waited for her bus to depart b4 I boarded mine...But I'm still uneasy abt the whole visiting ex-bf parents thingy...Reach Ipoh & have 2 days on my own b4 M came over...The nite b4 she comes over to Ipoh she called me & told me wat time she would arrive...To me to hear her saying tt she would be coming over to Ipoh is such a relieve...

When she finally reach Ipoh I pick her up in my parents Toyota..She told me she would be spending the nite at her aunties hse since she need to visit them coz her parents hv bought them some foodstuff fm Teluk Intan...I try to persuade her to sleep over at my plc as its more convinient to board the bus to KL the next morning...Then she agree & I bought her home to meet my parents...Of coz we will be sleeping in diff room..

Morning came & we went for breakfast together wz my parents...Was glad tt M can get along wz my mom who can be a handful...Then we board our bus & off we go to KL...Of coz I told my mom we were meeting our friends there which got guys & girls...Hv to say this coz my mom dont knw we hv been sleeping together...We stayed 2 days in KL...We stayed at a 3 star hotel near Petaling St...We had a great time in KL..As a young couple we make love whenever we are in our room...I think I came 8 times in those 2 days...It was truly a magical 2 days in every aspect...

When we are enjoying ourselves time seems to fly us by...Soon enuff we are back in Spore wrkin our ass off serving ppl...Abt one mth later I suggested we go Genting Highlands & she agree...Off we went again just the 2 of us...We only stayed for one nite...But it was an eye opening trip for me as it was the first time I hv set foot in a casino...I was amaze to see gambling chips changing hands btw dealer & customers...We didnt really play much & as xpected lost all our gambling capital which was thank god only RM200

After abt one mth aft tt trip,M started to chg...Chg in appearance,socializing & towards me....She wats to wear contact lenses which I dont really approve off...Told her I like her wz specs but she got contacts anyway..Somehow all this changes makes me uneasy...Bcoz of this stimes I would be cold towards her...I dont knw why I did tt...Maybe I was feeling unsecure...CNY came & originally I had plan to go back Ipoh but aft I got to knw M wasnt going back I cancelled my leave & stay back in Spore..

Apart fm spending time with M during CNY we were lest happy tt all the food stalls are cloze during CNY..Only fast food was open..But somehow those few days we were not as close as we were b4...I could sense tt her mind was on sthing else...I was afraid to ask her wats on her mind bcoz I dont knw how will I react if its sthing tt I dont wat to knw...As we seem to be drifting apart,I knw I have to do sthing to salvage our relationship...I ask one of my colleague who is an NTUC member to book a chalet at Pasir Ris...Hopefully by spending time alone wz M we can work wats gone wrong in our relationship..

TBC...

[studdyme]

please carry on!

[Admiral]

Please continue. Thanks.

[fictionman]

I decided to bring along my roomate to Pasir Ris chalet as he is an avid photographer...But he will only be staying one nite only..He would take pics of M & me...We sort of bonded over the 2 days...Could see the old M as we talk & laugh...As the first nite my roomate was staying wz us,we didnt hv any intimate time 2gether...Aft my roomate has left on the 2nd day,M & I went to Bedok for dinner & catch a movie...On the way back to the chalet I was thinkin gosh its so nice to hv some1 to go back together wz aft a niteout...Its like a married couple...When it was time for bed we cuddle & kiss but we didnt make love...It seems like she was not really in the mood so I also didnt force the issue...

The next morning I was feeling bit hot so I kiss M & she dont seem to mind...So I remove all her clothings & began to kiss her from neck down to her pussy...I lick her for the very 1st time...Can see tt she's enjoying it..As a novice in this "field",I wasnt sure if I'm doing it correctly or not haha..Then aft awhile I stop my licking & just stop everything...I didnt proceed further...Sthing was in the back of my mind..Here is a naked girl infront of me & I didnt go on to make love to her...What is wrong wz me..

It seems tt an incident few days b4 this hv affected me..On tt day I wanted to make love to M but she rejected my advances...For once in our relationship I was deeply dissapointed by this...Why hv she chg???...So wz this feeling I still had fm tt day I stop myself in the chalet...The feeling was just not right...She ask me why I stop but I didnt say athing much...tired I said..She was wondering how could I be tired when my cock was aldy hard?!!..

And so we pack up & left the chalet & head to the hotel as both of us have to work de the 5pm shift...On the way in the mrt,I couldnt stop thinkin abt the real reason I stop myself fm making out wz M...I had look at her wallet when she was bathing aft she woke up...To my suprise I saw her ex-bf pic in her wallet...My world had just came crushing down...How come aft breaking up for 8 mths & his pic is still inside there??!!...

Really wanted to ask her face to face but I just couldnt bring myself...Worse was to follow...When she was at the cashier counter I overheard tt her colleague says tt her ex-bf called the hotel & ask where is M as she didnt return home...Her sis whom M was staying didnt tell him tt she was wz me..Slowly I began to fit all the puzzle pieces together on why M hvnt been herself lately...

As I couldnt really ask her myself,I wrote a 7 page letter expressing both my love & concerns...In it I also mention abt the pic in her wallet...As in the first time when we got together 8 mths ago when she wrote me a letter confessing shes not a virgin,this time she wrote back to me & the contents of this letter really dissapoints me...A total 360 degree turn fm the first letter...I cried when I read the letter...

TBC...

[eeemen]

Oh dear, dissapointment of your first love? More plz, cheers .................

[IBCBen]

TS must be a spare tire ... subsitute. :eek:

The reason why she didnt make love with TS that night is because her neh neh is full of love bites from her "ex-bf"

[DreamOfLust]

rejection is always the hardest to overcome....


TS, please continue ! =)

[LovePotion]

I like that this story isnt some fantasy about 5 women wanting to rape him and stuff, but i can feel how real this issue is to the TS. I think this makes for a much better story.

Please continue TS

[KobeTopGun]

Camping for more .

[American]

Please carry on.

[San Miguel]

very nice and real personal story. please continue bro...

[fictionman]

M wrote tt she admitted tt she hv chg in a certain way but she's still the same girl I knew 7 mths ago...Inside her heart she's still the same girl I fell in love with...Maybe it's me but the changes hv made my uneasy...

Previously she would give me all her undivided attention...When both of us are wrkin the same shift,we would become a very lovey dovey couple...I would go to the cashier counter & talk to her & she would smile & laugh...She was happy to see me each second of the day...But as she started to chg in her appearance & outlook in life,I couldnt accept it...Maybe its bcoz I was not the focus of her life anymore...I might be selfish but I want her to be mine & only mine...

I mean which guy dont wat their gf to love & cherish them!!...M says bcoz she was engage at a young age & then got to know me,she's always having a guy beside her & doesnt hv time for other friends...She just wants to hv knw more friends...But she says she still loves me like before...Though it's comforting to me to know this but somehow my heart is just having so many doubts..

Finally she says y she still kept her ex-bf pic in her wallet...She admits tt she still loves him...She still hopes tt he will wats her back...But she knws by having all this thoughts will be unfair to me...My heart sank when I read wat she has written abt her ex-bf...I was angry but I didnt really told her abt this...

But she can sense tt I hv changed in my attitude towards her...Stimes I would be cold towards her in the way I spoke to her..How can I be the same person tt loves her wholeheartly before now tt I knw she still hv feelings for her ex..I tried my best to be as normal as I could but I couldn't..I didnt really force her to choose between us...I dodge the topic hoping it would be resolve by itself..i knw I am in denial...I knw her ex is her 1st love just like she was my 1st love...I knw how strong the love of 1st love is...In a way I was giving up without much of a fight..

I was young...Only 22...Wasn't very mature enuff to knw wat really is true love..What I see in movies abt love doesnt really apply in the real world...She told me she felt sad tt I was cold towards her but she would not scold me for tt coz she says she's in the wrong also...People in the hotel was talking wat hv happen to us...Before this,we were like so happy...Being in the spotlight,I was feeling very pressurize abt our relationship...

TBC..

[billgate]

camping for more... keep it coming..

[fictionman]

Though M looks normal on the outside,I knw she is hurting inside..Her feelings are torn between 2 men...I wat her to choose me but my heart knws she wil still hv feelings for her ex...When I am alone at nite in my room,I would be thinkin wat shld I do...Wats the best way for me to lead a normal life again..

Deep in my heart I knw I will always be 2nd to her ex...I knw I hv to let her go...But I couldnt say this face to face..I wrote a letter saying I dont wat her to choose...Told M its better for all concern tt I was out of her life..It was so painful for me to wrote those few words...As I had gone back aft finishing my shift,M called me...I could hear in her voice tt she was cryin...She ask me why hv I come to my decision...I said I couldnt carry on with the charade tt everyhing is fine...Both of us didnt really talk wats going to happen...One of us hv to make a decision

She just kept quiet aft my explanation...I scolded her for hving not get her ex out of her mind...She says sorry & since I couldnt bear to hear her cryin anymore I hang up the phone...The next few days we nvr spoke when we saw each other while wrkin...I tried to avoid her...My heart will hurt when I see her...By sheer concidence I got a call frm my mom saying tt my former colleague in Ipoh have a job offer for me in KL...I was thinkin this is the best time to leave Spore & try to put the past behind me & start afresh...I told one of my colleague tt I m going to KL for an interview...And in turn he told M abt this...The interview went well & I was offered the job in the accounts line...

Upon returning to Spore,I tender my resignation...M gave me a letter...It seems tt both of us just couldnt talk to each other anymore...She wrote tt she was sad to hear tt I was going back to Msia...She wanted to ask me to stay but she says she got no right to do tt after hurting me...She regretted hurting me the way she did...Saying tt she still loves me makes me more angry at her...I was just counting down the days to leaving the hotel & get M out of my mind...Then one week b4 my last day,M called me saying tt she wats to meet me...

TBC....

[studdyme]

camping for more!

[IBCBen]

Then one week b4 my last day,M called me saying tt she wats to meet me...

TBC....

Spoiler : M got preggy :p

[fictionman]

Spoiler : M got preggy :p

How I wish it was true bro....

[fictionman]

She says she wants to talk face to face...No more letters...I agree & we went to JB...The first thing M says to me when we sat down at Pizza Hut in JB was "Sorry"...She kept on saying how sorry she was for hurting me...Saying tt she still loves me...I just look at her & suddenly I scolded her..

I dont wat to hear those apologetic words...Told her I was deeply hurt & nothing could change tt...Her tears began to flow down her cheeks...I couldnt control myself...Words aft words kept coming out...All hurtful words..Then aft my emotions were controlled,I look at her & cried too..

I was soft hearted & then apologize for scolding her...A part of me was hoping we could reconcile but another was telling me to let go...She have already made up her mind to follow her ex back...After so long,I finally hear it from her mouth that she is going back to him..

In a way I was relieved that the whole love triangle saga is coming to an end..We could move on with our lives...I told her of my plans to go back to KL to work...Told her I'm going into accts line since I hv a diploma in it...All this while,wrkin as a waiter was only a stepping stone to finding a accts job in Spore but due to knowing M I didnt move on earlier as I hv hope...

Then I took out a tissue & wipe away M's tears...She smiled...Tt was the first time M had smile infront of me since we parted..It was such a beautiful sight..She hold my hand as I was wiping her tears...Her touch was so warm & I felt like not wanting to let her go...I was fighting myself not to get too emotional...

After a few hours,we were heading back to Spore...
While on board 170,I reach out & hold M's hand just like I did when we both step out of the cinema 8 mths ago...She hold my hand tightly & put her head on my shoulder...I could hear M was cryin again but both of us just kept quiet the whole journey to Queen St..

I was hoping the bus trip would take an eternity so I could enjoy these last few moments with M...Soon enough we reached our destination...B4 we get down the bus,I told M I wont blame her for all the things tt hv happen..I hug her for the last time...She told me to take care of myself in KL & says "I will never forget you & I will always love you"....

TBC....

[ricrain29]

Thanks bro TS for the story, really reminds me of my past relationship too, feels a bit bittersweet with hint of sour now....sigh love can be a bitch huh?

[fictionman]

Thanks bro TS for the story, really reminds me of my past relationship too, feels a bit bittersweet with hint of sour now....sigh love can be a bitch huh?

Stimes Love Hurts bro...

[fictionman]

I feel more at peace now aft our rendevous in JB...I hv learn to let M go..Though we would meet occasionally during work,my hatred towards her had subsided..

One nite I saw M bought a piece of cake & she told me its for her bf...B4 this,I knw I would get angry abt this but now I hv to accept for who she is..

She's a caring & loving person...The piece of cake reminded me when M came over to my hostel upon hearing I had tooth ache & brought over green bean soup which she had made herself...She said it will help to ease the pain...Of coz I was jealous abt tt little piece of cake but what's the point in  doing tt I told myself...Yes it was hard & I mean very very hard to take but I just walk away to compose myself...

The day have finally come to leave the hotel...It was my last day...I was wrkin inside the coffee house & M was wrkin at the outdoor cafe...Many colleagues came by to wish me well but one particular aunty stood out...She ask me "You really giving up on M?...She still cares alot for you"...This aunty was the 1st person who knew we were dating 8 mths ago...How ironic tt she would be the last person in the hotel to ask me tt question..

I told her there's nothing more I can do...So she accepted my explanation...As the outdoor cafe is just beside the coffeehouse,I can see M at her wrkin place...I could see a few times she would turn to look at me...I just smile but deep inside my heart I was in pain...Then suddenly I could hear the band at the cafe saying they are going to sing a song for me as it was my last day...Initially I thght they actually knw it was my last day but later the singer says this  song is a dedication fm yr love one,M...We both like this song when we were both wrkin together at the cafe...The song is "Daddy's Home"...

I was stun by the attention...Then I saw M thru the glass window looking at me cryin...I could saw her lips was saying sting...She said "I love you"...I really wanted to run to her & hug her but I just couldnt do it...If I do,my feelings towards her would come flooding back...My last day wrkin & I thght I could let M go easily but how wrong am I...I just walk away once the song ends...

Then it was time to go home aft wrk...We were waiting for our co transport...As both of us are staying far apart,we took different buses...When my bus came,I went over to M & told her this is it...I am leaving this place & told her to take care of yrself...As I'm not comfortable showing my emotions in public as there are alot of our colleagues there,I didnt hug M...I regretted not hugging her till today...M just stood there..I just hold her hand for awhile & boarded my bus..

TBC

[eeemen]

bro TS, i feel for you bro. Thanks for sharing, cheers ..............

[fictionman]

Sorry to all coz my story lack sex coz this after all is adult discussion abt sex....Just want to pour out my feelings...

[fictionman]

Finally the day to leave Spore has arrive...The last few nites was spend wz my ex colleagues & roomates...Drank beer with my roomates & my female colleagues brought me to Fire disco at Orchard Plz to forget the unhappiness of M...I appreciate their good intentions but I wasnt really enjoying myself for obvious reason...Though I did enjoy Douglas Olivero Energy's performance...

Went for dinner wz my roomates...We went back to our hostel as it was still early...I went downstairs to make one final call to M...She was wrking on tt day...I didnt actually told her it was my last day in Spore...I dont want to see her shedding more tears...

She pick up the call...Told her goodbye & to take care of herself...All the while she was silent..Ask her why she is quiet...She just manage to say out "Please take good care of yrself ok"...The background was too noisy with the band playing...Couldnt really hear clearly...

Then I said "You take care of yrself also ok & I will never ever 4get you"...She went silent again...I knew she was crying...Then i said goodbye & hung up the phone..I slowly walk back to my hostel wz a heavy heart...Last time didnt hv a handphone so I knew she couldnt call me back if she wanted to...

My roomate brought me to Golden Mile to board my bus...Soon it was 9.30pm & its time for me to board the bus...Throughout the journey back I kept on thinkin of what might have been it I was a bit more aggressive in fighting over M...Could she hv choosen me over her ex??...Now its all too late...Though it hurts thinkin abt it but I know it was the right decision to make...

Life continues in KL...Got an office job wrkin 9 to 6...Life was starting to be normal again...Met new colleagues although not as happening as b4 I must admit..Then I received a letter fm M...She said she is doing fine in Spore...Says since I went back,wrkin in the hotel just isnt the same anymore..She said whenever she walk past the coffeehouse she always imagine I was still there but was away for awhile in the kitchen coz she couldnt see me..

Whenever she thinks of me,she would read back all the letters i hv wrote to her b4..She would listen to the 2 cassette tapes I hv recorded for her...It contains all my fav songs..."Love Of A Lifetime"...""Lost In Love"..."Praying For Time"..."I've Been In Love Before"..."Save A Prayer"..."Look Away"...She says would cry listening to them when she was alone especially my fav song "Look Away"...Thinkin back dont knw if its fate but the lyrics of the song is abt a guy losing the girl he loves...

TBC...

[superduker1]

Oh...bro, reminds me of my first love too.. :)

Sweet n painful... Things that can never be forgotten thru time.

[PeteTsang69]

"It Must Have Been Love Love" - Roxette

that song gets me going every time ..so early 1990's
i lost a love around that time, though not my first love ...still it was great lost to me ... though i did find new loves after that ;) ...
first/early ones are of course very special cos so naive, so lost, don't know how to handle it well :(...

thanks bro for the nostalgia ...

[fictionman]

"It Must Have Been Love Love" - Roxette

that song gets me going every time ..so early 1990's
i lost a love around that time, though not my first love ...still it was great lost to me ... though i did find new loves after that ;) ...
first/early ones are of course very special cos so naive, so lost, don't know how to handle it well :(...

thanks bro for the nostalgia ...

Stimes it feels so good we can relieve those good memories & yet it brings sadness as well...

[imax88]

Whenever she thinks of me,she would read back all the letters i hv wrote to her b4..She would listen to the 2 cassette tapes I hv recorded for her...It contains all my fav songs..."Love Of A Lifetime"...""Lost In Love"..."Praying For Time"..."I've Been In Love Before"..."Save A Prayer"..."Look Away"...She says would cry listening to them when she was alone especially my fav song "Look Away"...Thinkin back dont knw if its fate but the lyrics of the song is abt a guy losing the girl he loves...

TBC...

cassettes recorded in "friendly" hah? :D

[fictionman]

cassettes recorded in "friendly" hah? :D

Not Friendly bro...2nd floor Yik Foong...Melody if I rmb correctly...Good times back then....

[fictionman]

Reading her letter saying how much she loves me makes me so guilty of not fighting over her...Her last words in the letter reads "I will always love you as a lover & a friend"...How I wish I could be there for her now...

I shed a tear after finishing the letter but life has to move on...We are living our separate lives now...Work in KL is great but it was not as fun as b4...I wrote to my ex colleagues in Spore & they told me M is doing fine although stimes she would be staring blankly into space...God only knws what is she thinkin...Mths went by & I soon manage to put M slowly behind me..

After abt a year,I was getting frustrated with work in KL...Then I saw an ad abt a job in Spore...I jump at the opportunity to work in Spore again...I stayed with my ex colleagues who hv rented a hse on their own...It was like old times...Only difference is tt I didnt look for M anymore...She knws I'm back thru my roomate but both of us didnt contact each other...

Abt a year later,my roomate told me M is moving to Penang  to work...He ask me if I want her new address there...I guess M must hv told him to pass it to me...I said "No"...Its better to let her go completely rather then hanging on...Time  past by & eventually I met a girl in my new co...After 4 years of courtship,we are now happily married with 1 son...

Stimes when I think back abt my time with M,it still bring back tears...But I want to remember M for the time we spend together as a couple..I would still think of M whenever I visit the places I went with her b4...Sentosa were we went cycling...Pasir Ris chalet where we acted like a married couple...The floating stadium where previously was a lovers make out place where we hug & kiss & of coz the hotel we previously worked...All these are special memories I will treasure for the rest of my life...

The reason I started to write my story here is bcoz I heard my fav song "Look Away" on Class95fm & my mind was transported back to 1991...All the memories is still as fresh as it was back then...Till today I still think of M...Stimes I do want to see her again...Just want to see how she is doing...Tried to find her on Facebook by no such luck...Maybe we are not fated to be together...

Whatever it is,M would always have a place in my heart...Nothing could take away our memories together..The only thing we share now is whenever we look up to the sky,we would be seeing the same clouds wherever she may be now...

Just want to end my story by saying "I will always love you M".

The End.

[PeteTsang69]

..The only thing we share now is whenever we look up to the sky,we would be seeing the same clouds wherever she may be now...


wow bro ..thanks ...that line really got to me .... when i look up to the sky, i easily reminisce about the past .. lived/traveled in many places ... but never thought about someone that special to me, doing the same thing at the same time ... great idea ...

great scene for a film maker ...:)

cheers
.

[WhyWhy00]

Nice Story..alot of old memories pop out too.


Just want to end my story by saying "I will always love you Monica".

The End.

[fictionman]

Thanks to all who hv taken their time to read & comment...

[fictionman]

http://http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2DkKRFUbH_4

[DreamOfLust]

this sounds like a dream come true....

[hannibald]

camping here

[fictionman]

Whatever I hear this song it will remind me of the days we spend at the outdoor cafe...My love for you will never ever go away....I Love You Monica

http://http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZoEwR9_Sy_M

Unchained Melody

[fictionman]

My true story of my 1st Love has come to an end...Soon I will continue on with my next true life story..."My 2nd Love...My Wife"...

Cherish your love ones dearly...Dont take anything for granted

[fictionman]

Today mark exactly 21 years ago I first saw M....Without fail every 6th Aug since we broke up, I will be feeling low in spirits...I will always listen to my fav song "Look Away" on this day...

Like every 6th Aug for the past 20 years, I wlll be sitting at my desk staring blankly at the pc....My mind will be thinkin of M...Thinkin of the very 1st time I saw her walking towards me...I don't think this piece of memory will ever be erased from me....

That's the only piece of M I have now...Though I hv a wonderful family now, I could never get M out of my life...She will forever be my 1st love & 1st love will never be forgotten no matter how happy or painful it is...

Later after work, I will walk by myself to Orchard Parade Hotel to relive my memories of her once again...After 20 years, I still cant let her go or maybe I just dont wat to let her go...I will always imagine she is still wrkin in the hotel...

Life will return to normal in a few days but for today at least I wat to remember M the way she is 21 years ago...

I will always love you

[fictionman]

Wzout fail aft every CNY for the past 20 odd yrs, I will feel sad...Sad abt the one & only CNY i spend wz M...Sad coz it was during CNY we were drifting apart...

The saying time heals all wounds doesnt do it 4 me...Yes over these years i shld hv let M go but she remains fresh in my mind...Stimes when i see,hear,eat & touch things tt we used to do together, i would silently transport back myself to the time we were a couple even when my wife is beside me...

The feeling these few days was so great till i dig out the letters M had written to me...I read & read every single words...Why why why????...Why aren't we spending CNY together the last 22 years!!!!....Why must she be only a memory to me!!!!....Why must i feel this way every CNY???...

Deep inside me, i wat to see M again...See how's life been for her...Just some news or pics of her would suffice...Is she happy or sad???...Really hurt stimes thinkin abt her...I hv a wonderful wife & son now...Yes Im happy wz my life now..But M still "haunts" me!!!!...

U name it...I tried facebook,twitter,tagged,friendster,google,yahoo... All in vain trying to find her...Maybe its fated we would not cross path again but i will still try & try to at least hv some sort of news abt her b4 my life ends...

[CapriG]

TS your story got me recalled my first relationship too.

That was almost the same matter were you back then, instead, I decided to be with her even she couldn't forgetting the other guy. It was pain and still the same consequence ... separated ...

I hope you will be able to find M. soon...

[pakalolo]

Hi TS i was working at Orchard Hotel many years ago too in 1982 for about a year
Wonder if there is a bartender named Albert when you are there.

[fictionman]

Hi TS i was working at Orchard Hotel many years ago too in 1982 for about a year
Wonder if there is a bartender named Albert when you are there.

I wrk at Orchard Parade aka Ming Court hotel...u at Orchard hotel across the road fm me...But de name Albert do sounds familiar...

[pussywillow]

Nice post. Just read all of them today! Certainly brings some of my first love memories back as well. Ask Jack Neo to make a movie out of your story called Ah Boy and Ah Girl :)


Did you try to go back to her hometown one day to find her?

[pakalolo]

I wrk at Orchard Parade aka Ming Court hotel...u at Orchard hotel across the road fm me...But de name Albert do sounds familiar...

Oh sorry i got it wrong tot it was Ochard hotel,yes those days it was Ming Court but can't remember when they change the name.
They also have a popular pub at the basement called Rainbow:D

[fictionman]

Nice post. Just read all of them today! Certainly brings some of my first love memories back as well. Ask Jack Neo to make a movie out of your story called Ah Boy and Ah Girl :)


Did you try to go back to her hometown one day to find her?

Sad to say i dont hv her hometown address....First luv always leave an everlasting memory whether it last or not...Really envy those couples tt r still married wz their 1st love...

If Jack Neo adopt my story for sure i can find M!!!!!

[pussywillow]

Sad to say i dont hv her hometown address....First luv always leave an everlasting memory whether it last or not...Really envy those couples tt r still married wz their 1st love...

If Jack Neo adopt my story for sure i can find M!!!!!


Haha! maybe he is on this forum and will read your story :))

Or put up advertisement in Malaysia papers. If you watched the movie Letters to Juliet here's a quote for you. Nice move BTW for the die hard romantics.



"'What' and ‘if’ two words as nonthreatening
as words come. But put
them together side-by-side and they
have the power to haunt you for the
rest of your life: ‘What if?'..."

"I don't know how your story ended.
But I know that if what you felt
then was love - true love - then
it's never too late. If it was true
then it why wouldn't it be true
now? You need only the courage to
follow your heart..."

"I don't know what a love like that
feels like... a love to leave loved
ones for, a love to cross oceans
for... but I'd like to believe if I
ever felt it. I'd have the courage
to seize it. I hope you had the
courage to seize it, Claire. And if
you didn't, I hope one day that you
will."

[pakalolo]

Sorry no offence but after all that is said and done,honestly i don't see the point of looking her up after all you now have your own family and she most likely will also have her own family.

Ok let's say both of you do meet up then what?

worse if both of you still can't let go and start an affair then both parties will get hurt more than ever.

It nice to remember past sweet romance but that is all to it.In life we have to be practical and since both of you have move on it is best to leave it at that,after all it's 21 years ago.

no offence bro

[pussywillow]

Sure understand. But from TS post it seems he really hasn't let go of her after all these years.

Hey but we are not him so...

[pakalolo]

Sure understand. But from TS post it seems he really hasn't let go of her after all these years.

Hey but we are not him so...

Yes i reckon you are right we are not him so...

Just my 2 cent opinion :D

[fictionman]

no offence bro

Non taken bro...I understand yr point of view...I also dont knw wat i hope to achieve by trying to locate M...Mayb deep down i still love her dearly although i am happily married now...I wont sacrifice my marriage...I just wat to see how she is doing only...When i care for some1, i will never forget them...

When i watch the movie "Comrades Almost A Love Story" starrin Maggie Cheung & Leon Lai where they bcome lovers & then separated but found each other again later on, i was thinkin how nice it is if the same scenario could happen to us...Though both characters were married but they had an affair...Yes i wish only tt this could happen to us but i knw even if we found each orher again we wont sacrifice our lives now

So much tears rolled down our cheeks when we broke up...Even now when Mediacorpse rerun "Edward Scissorshand" & AXN rerun "Terminator 2", i had to fight back my tears...I just wat to knw how the woman i still love is doing in her life...Mayb i just wat closure in this part of my life..

Loving some1 & then losing tt some1 is realli really painful...

[pakalolo]

Non taken bro...I understand yr point of view...I also dont knw wat i hope to achieve by trying to locate M...Mayb deep down i still love her dearly although i am happily married now...I wont sacrifice my marriage...I just wat to see how she is doing only...When i care for some1, i will never forget them...

When i watch the movie "Comrades Almost A Love Story" starrin Maggie Cheung & Leon Lai where they bcome lovers & then separated but found each other again later on, i was thinkin how nice it is if the same scenario could happen to us...Though both characters were married but they had an affair...Yes i wish only tt this could happen to us but i knw even if we found each orher again we wont sacrifice our lives now

So much tears rolled down our cheeks when we broke up...Even now when Mediacorpse rerun "Edward Scissorshand" & AXN rerun "Terminator 2", i had to fight back my tears...I just wat to knw how the woman i still love is doing in her life...Mayb i just wat closure in this part of my life..

Loving some1 & then losing tt some1 is realli really painful...

Well as long as your feet is on the ground i reckon it should be alright to know how she is doing:D

[fictionman]

Sure understand. But from TS post it seems he really hasn't let go of her after all these years.

Hey but we are not him so...

In a way haven't totally let go in my heart..But in my mind i accept that is over 21 years ago...:(

[waahaa]

i guess you missed one song from your list

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CESeHxvog1A

[fictionman]

i guess you missed one song from your list



I just want to be friends with M if we were to ever meet one day...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5o7HT1xtVBo

[peterpan69bg]

I love this story TS >reminscises my own love story toooo

[DranLeo]

well done ts

[fictionman]

I love this story TS >reminscises my own love story toooo

Thx bro....Maybe you shld spare some of yr time to write yr love story tooo...I luv to see it & i bet others would toooo....

Go for itttt...

[fictionman]

I have "done" things in the past & present hoping tt i will meet M...Its like clutchin at straws!!!...Im an avid runner...Participated in loads of half marathons in Spore & Msia..I knw since M left Spore, she has set up roots in Penang..I chio my buddies to run the Penang Bridge run in the late 90s..Why go so far to "torture" our bodies???...Well i was hoping somehow i could bump into M there!!

Its a one in a billion shot by i just wat to try my luck...Of coz i didnt tell my buddies all this stupid fantasy of mind..After a gruelling 2 hrs plus of running, all i got from the trip was a fcuking painful leg!!!...Not once but 3 times i ran the Penang Bridge Run!!!!...Yes it was stupid of me...But i got to try if not i will nvr knw...But i have stop since 1999...

Even nowadays when i go ard Spore, i would open my eyes wide to look ard hoping tt i could see M...So pathetic stimes i think of myself...

Stimes i find myself very stupid to hold on to this "hope"...Its been 20 odd years i know i shld let go & just hold on to the memories i shared wz M...Sweet or bitter memories at least it will stay wz me 4ever...