Law666
17-01-2006, 12:44 PM
Below a situation, any bros any advice...thanks.
My heart's telling me to put a stop to my relationship with my CO and start brand new with Mr M. But my head's telling, M will cheat on u in the future with his good looks, outgoing personality, and a past two-timing experience when with his long term CO.. Stay in your present relationship!! my head says... it is secure, and past records show that my CO have always been faithful to his ex-gfs. But the moments spent with Mr M have always been special. The way he dotes on me, allows me to be dependent on him, buys small little gifts like cakes from my favourite cafe and fragrance that I love.. We have a 5 yr age gap, which I never felt was a hindrance, even though at times, he feels that we have different mindsets.. He makes me feel very special and desired, something which I don't experience from my CO as he was always turning down my requests for sex in the past.. and he doesnt fulfill my fantasies/needs/favourite positions and dont even know what i enjoy...
I got to know Mr M when I was a FL.. He was my 4th customer.. and my last.. I was his 5-6th FL and last as well.. At the time that I was doing FL, I was single.. My CO wanted a breakup as he had other commitments... I met Mr M at H81 Chinatown during lunchtime..When he opened that room door, I was taken aback immediately.. He was very good looking, presentable with a very charming smile. He was different from other customers.. He treated me with respect, like I was his gf for that 1hr. We had subsequent sessions after that.. and it developed into a hush hush relationship.. His CO kept very close tabs on him, so we kept in touch through emailing each other numerous times each day. Office life became colourful since. I would refresh my email every now and then, looking forward to his mails. We could talk about everything under the sun.. We told each other about our sexual fantasies, our problems at work, problems in our personal life... We even emailed each other FRs after every session we have in the hotel, handicapped toilet, even rooftop.. Sex with Mr M is very enjoyable and filled with surprises..He definitely sextisfied me totally..and i wasnt shy at all to convey my sexual preferences to him.. We were the best sex partners.. When my office moved somewhere near his, we would meet up everyday for lunch.
During that period, I still kept in contact with my ex-CO (now CO)... Then he realised of Mr M's presence.. He wanted a patch back.. At that period, I felt lonely at times as Mr M would be totally out of reach after office hours, back to his CO's place. Therefore, I patched back with my CO..
Things started to turn sour... Even though we still cared for each other, we started to develop jealous feelings when we started bringing in our COs into our casual chats.. Heaven must be playing tricks on us.... At times during weekends when we try to meet up, things will always go heywire..
My CO on the other hand... wants me to be independent.. I used to love him alot, sacrificing time with my family and close friends. but things took a turn when he started to have other commitments.. I was at fault too for not placing enough trust in him, and always being suspicious.. After all, I was just too used to spending almost every single day with him for more than half a year..
Now, I no longer love my CO... I feel that I have compromised too much, overlooking my personal needs in the past.. Like sexual needs which I find very important in a relationship, but he thinks otherwise.. I feel degraded in the past that most of the time, I was the one who was initiating sex, and usually got turned down..I didnt feel desired..like the way i feel when with Mr M..
I love Mr M alot.. the only thing pulling me back is whether he will be unfaithful..Which to me is very important as I've seen many loved ones around me getting hurt.. I know for sure that he really loves me alot now, but in time to come, will he get sick of me? Will he be able to put up with my terrible mood swings and quirky personality?
Mr M wants to put our relationship to a halt for now as he can no longer tolerate that fact that i'm with 2 guys at the same time...He said that the more he sees that I'm with my CO, the more he feels that i'm not the girl he loves.. As i was contradicting myself since i mentioned before that a person could never love 2 people at the same time. He's together with his CO due to responsibility.. as he is her pillar of emotional support.. He said that he will be back for me when things dont work out between me and my CO..
What should i do... should i choose to go with my heart..? Or should I choose to stay in my secure shelter and lead a monotonous life without Mr M.. one with no colours and a sex life that is not enjoyable and bland...
My heart's telling me to put a stop to my relationship with my CO and start brand new with Mr M. But my head's telling, M will cheat on u in the future with his good looks, outgoing personality, and a past two-timing experience when with his long term CO.. Stay in your present relationship!! my head says... it is secure, and past records show that my CO have always been faithful to his ex-gfs. But the moments spent with Mr M have always been special. The way he dotes on me, allows me to be dependent on him, buys small little gifts like cakes from my favourite cafe and fragrance that I love.. We have a 5 yr age gap, which I never felt was a hindrance, even though at times, he feels that we have different mindsets.. He makes me feel very special and desired, something which I don't experience from my CO as he was always turning down my requests for sex in the past.. and he doesnt fulfill my fantasies/needs/favourite positions and dont even know what i enjoy...
I got to know Mr M when I was a FL.. He was my 4th customer.. and my last.. I was his 5-6th FL and last as well.. At the time that I was doing FL, I was single.. My CO wanted a breakup as he had other commitments... I met Mr M at H81 Chinatown during lunchtime..When he opened that room door, I was taken aback immediately.. He was very good looking, presentable with a very charming smile. He was different from other customers.. He treated me with respect, like I was his gf for that 1hr. We had subsequent sessions after that.. and it developed into a hush hush relationship.. His CO kept very close tabs on him, so we kept in touch through emailing each other numerous times each day. Office life became colourful since. I would refresh my email every now and then, looking forward to his mails. We could talk about everything under the sun.. We told each other about our sexual fantasies, our problems at work, problems in our personal life... We even emailed each other FRs after every session we have in the hotel, handicapped toilet, even rooftop.. Sex with Mr M is very enjoyable and filled with surprises..He definitely sextisfied me totally..and i wasnt shy at all to convey my sexual preferences to him.. We were the best sex partners.. When my office moved somewhere near his, we would meet up everyday for lunch.
During that period, I still kept in contact with my ex-CO (now CO)... Then he realised of Mr M's presence.. He wanted a patch back.. At that period, I felt lonely at times as Mr M would be totally out of reach after office hours, back to his CO's place. Therefore, I patched back with my CO..
Things started to turn sour... Even though we still cared for each other, we started to develop jealous feelings when we started bringing in our COs into our casual chats.. Heaven must be playing tricks on us.... At times during weekends when we try to meet up, things will always go heywire..
My CO on the other hand... wants me to be independent.. I used to love him alot, sacrificing time with my family and close friends. but things took a turn when he started to have other commitments.. I was at fault too for not placing enough trust in him, and always being suspicious.. After all, I was just too used to spending almost every single day with him for more than half a year..
Now, I no longer love my CO... I feel that I have compromised too much, overlooking my personal needs in the past.. Like sexual needs which I find very important in a relationship, but he thinks otherwise.. I feel degraded in the past that most of the time, I was the one who was initiating sex, and usually got turned down..I didnt feel desired..like the way i feel when with Mr M..
I love Mr M alot.. the only thing pulling me back is whether he will be unfaithful..Which to me is very important as I've seen many loved ones around me getting hurt.. I know for sure that he really loves me alot now, but in time to come, will he get sick of me? Will he be able to put up with my terrible mood swings and quirky personality?
Mr M wants to put our relationship to a halt for now as he can no longer tolerate that fact that i'm with 2 guys at the same time...He said that the more he sees that I'm with my CO, the more he feels that i'm not the girl he loves.. As i was contradicting myself since i mentioned before that a person could never love 2 people at the same time. He's together with his CO due to responsibility.. as he is her pillar of emotional support.. He said that he will be back for me when things dont work out between me and my CO..
What should i do... should i choose to go with my heart..? Or should I choose to stay in my secure shelter and lead a monotonous life without Mr M.. one with no colours and a sex life that is not enjoyable and bland...