So very true!
this is exactly what I found in David...
When I found him... he was a bit emotionally wounded. he was obsessed with a breakup but he had to pretend he was fine... and that's how the fateful night started...
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hijack: my story. I have hijacked someone's thread and regurgitated bits and pieces of whatever that flashes in my mind last year. Strangely memories of many things i have blocked out for the last 10years slowly creep back and especially with the ambition of trying to write 일년에 열두 남자 – Twelve men in a year....
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I reported to 16 Nassim Hill almost every weekend back then or 360 Orchard Road. Both places I need not queue. Of course with my fatty girlfriend who is a 54G. Yes, sad to say, I was that bamboo stick, probably non existence standing beside her. Guys usually flocked to her due to her size. I was merely the background wallpaper and usually quiet, worst... sometimes i couldn't speak... sometimes i stutter...
It was the same whenever I went out with her. I was usually ignored and standing alone. As usual, she was with guys at the dance floor dancing. I was never picked due to that bamboo stick figure.
Being the ugly duckling I was left alone at the bar counter with thick thick glasses, long curly messy hair and absolutely flat chested. More like a stick standing there.
I noticed a guy was standing at the bar counter alone too. He did not have any friends with him and which is weird because Aquarius usually have a bunch of friends surrounding him but in David's he was alone.
We did not speak for a long time just standing at the bar with all the loud music and such. Me just having shots and getting drown in the background and music. Him with his bottle drowning himself.
Some time between 2am, he began to approach me to chat me up. Not sure why but I believe that is man's hunter instinct. Seeing me with my shots, he offered me his drink. Of course, YES! I was at my peak on drinks!
I was once an alcoholic during my younger days... at precisely 7.30pm every night, I could feel invisible insects and crawlies crawling on my skin and have a queezy feeling. I just couldn't sit still. My drinking buddies, Tai Lou and his gang, told me I am slowly becoming alcoholic and loosing my mind. I could mostly hold 1 bottle on my own so they told me I had better stop unless I want to vomit blood.
I chatted with David and found out that he is/was an Aquarius. He was very soft spoken despite the pounding music at the background. And YES! I have to say it, it was his beady eyes that attracted me. Of course his physique was those of like K-drama lead guy but back then, I had absolutely no idea it bears similarities of that but only tall, suave and model face. He had offered me drinks from his bottle after seeing how much I shot.
From that short period of time during our chats I found out that he was alone by choice. He was nursing a wound. His birthday was just over and his girlfriend left him. At that time, of course, the ugly duckling me would not have realised it was a hunter's instinct. I just an outcast standing beside the tall nice looking chap!
By the time the lights were out, my fatty BIG BUSTY girlfriend decided to leave and I was to find my own way home when David asked me to join him for a ride. A ride to me was just a mere figurative speech hence I thought its just a spin in a car then I'll be back home.
Little did I know until we got out of 16 Nassim Hill and he showed me. It was a black Yamaha 1100 virago. He then passed me one of his helmets and I was genuinely trying to figure out how to wear it because I was pretty high and mostly I do not wear helmets. NO PUNS intended here though, because I know, I know guys “wear” helmets during intercourse.
He spoke softly and asked if I have thought of a place to go. I just slurred out I have absolutely no idea. So he just said hop on and we'll go somewhere. We stopped precisely at 360 Orchard Road's traffic light and he asked again "where do you want to go?", "huh? (again,) I don't know, you driver ma."
The Aquarius treats you like a friend, pouring out his sorrows when he was alone. I guessed, this was one bit of him that was genuinely true. What happened next was about me being blur asking about vapour at the window of cars LOLS! I was never in that car with the vapour at all so sorry cannot relate to that!
At first sight, he wasn't loud and flamboyant in the way he portray himself. His off beat sudden attempt to kiss was also in bad timing that I turned my head away when he got near my face shows that he wasn't those who would go overboard at the first meet but will take baby steps. He was the boy next door.
Or maybe I was just pure dumb. LOLS! Seems like a scene in a rom-com of a typical korean drama. Damn! I was the clown.
Unfortunately for me, I had no idea what was in store for me in the later weeks to come and also no idea I was like that... even from the beginning... when 2 persons mentioned something about me which I had totally ignored, about my sexuality...