the 3 that changed me

[kittymae]

Originally Posted by queeniegal

Sometimes a gal change from simple naive to suspicious, wild totally not to person who she was is because of the hurts she went thru..

She may seen tough move on however everything is just registered down inside their brains..

Maybe nt gals perhaps for all living thing ba.. Once bitten twice shy..

That IMO

TS - yolo!!! Enjoy

i so agree!! where is the "Like" button? ?? lol

Originally Posted by drslump99

He is now worth it, treat it as a nightmare that ended and u woke up, although shaken a little, dun have to live under his shadows anymore.
Go karaoke and sing out the frustration and kick him out of your system

Like Margret Lee said in "master of the seas"

"Crush him, crushed him like a cockroach, that u should!"

how u know i went to sing out my frustrations?!?!
did u stalk me?

Originally Posted by queeniegal

Nice! Bank scandals lol.. I like (:

haha... maybe i should contribute some i heard as side stories huh? hmm..but better not...the circle really is that small only, altho i did hear sthg about a certain banker that drives a Maserati...

Originally Posted by curiouslala

To sis kitty:
Ya, u shouldn't question it anymore.
And I really hope that ur ex healed himself first before committing with his new gal. As a playboy thing isn't something that a gal can heal or changed.
He must have to healed or changed himself to be back to the right track. If no, I just can wish his gal is okay. Not broken hearted or maybe faced same unpleasant event as yours.

yes dajie lala!!
the last i heard, he is still working in a bank, and a swinging bachelor...
Interestingly, many of his exes ii heard, are now happily married.

[queeniegal]

Haha no like button here la....
Yeah.. I just sorta sorted my thoughts I put my changed me on someone who I like ha I think he can't breathe now. Feeling I'm too demanding at times. I miss the old me sigh but another side of me always said cannot have history repeats haha torn apart sigh

I used to work with bankers wahahahahahaha

Lol If the banker drive xxx car change to yyy car lol value ard same can le ha.. See I can remember some to contribute ornot ha
But is really small maybe we might know each other or hv common friend wahahaha

[drslump99]

Laugh Out Loud, is there a chance I stalk you?
We dun even know each other, except in SBF.

When I am down and out, I like to go sing my heart out.
It helps a little.
After the tears stop flowing, so will the pain.

[queeniegal]

Originally Posted by drslump99

Laugh Out Loud, is there a chance I stalk you?
We dun even know each other, except in SBF.

When I am down and out, I like to go sing my heart out.
It helps a little.
After the tears stop flowing, so will the pain.

Haha agreed with u.. Sing out will help..
I does it too. Always late night I sing haha..

[kittymae]

since i can't sleep, i might as well continue with Part II.

Numero Dos: Falling, falling into the darkness

My growing up years were in a predominantly female and/or Christian environment. 10 years in all-girls schools, then in JC i elected for the Arts stream (maybe my class had more guys 9 out of 23, maybe due to the combi of econs+lit+history), and then again when i chose to study business in Uni.
thus from young, it was inculcated into me the values of keeping chaste thoughts, no sex before marriage, etc
keeping these 'teachings' in mind, and also because i had brothers and many male cousins, i got along with the guys pretty easily, to the point they referred to me as one of their 'bros'
perhaps this was why i seemed 'different' to K?
Cos i was caught in a unique mix of 2 worlds? I'll never know.

After that incident with K, i was apprehensive of getting into a relationship for a long time. You could say it left a scar on me. I also found myself constantly wondering, what if, i was just like every other girl K knew. Would it had turned out differently?

Then I met Ethan at a mutual friend's gathering over Christmas. We clicked pretty quickly and by the end of the night, had exchanged numbers, with Ethan agreeing to give a 2nd opinion on my existing insurance policies (he did some part time insurance work. he was an engineer by profession).
If K is described as a typical yuppie beng, then Ethan was the opposite. Fair, bespectacled and of average build (perhaps leaning towards to slimmer side) and abt 1.8m tall with signs of a developing tummy (something i would grow to appreciate..haha). My initial assessment of him was- nuah nuah kind. no way! up till then, my preference was towards more athletic, tanned guys or the other extreme- the intellectual kind.

Anyway, as Ethan & I lived pretty close to each other (ok, so maybe not that close. about 15-20 mins away), we decided to cab back together. Can split the midnight charge mah. It was pretty interesting exchanging pointers n investments, insurance, manga we both enjoyed, and i found out he did play a sport- badminton. Oh. he wasn't local. he was malaysian by the way.
I alighted first and waved goodbye to Ethan, thinking that I hadn't had an enjoyable conversation with a guy for quite a while.
The beep tone from my phone signaled an incoming whatsapp message.

Ethan: safely in the house?
Me: yep, going to take a quick shower then sleep. u hm yet?
Ethan: Ya. going to shower too. k, have a good sleep. good night.
Me: Nites!

this casual whatsapp message gradually became a norm for us. every morning whilst on the way to work, when we got off work, and sometimes even chatting through webcam on msn before going to bed. over the next few weeks, our conversations became more intimate and I began to think, perhaps this was the breakthrough following the what happened with K.

One day, whilst on webcam, Ethan seemed to have received a text on his phone and after typing "BRB", quickly logged off.
I was mystified. did something urgent crop up? Was all ok?
20 minutes later, Ethan was back on line, on regular msn, no webcam this time

Ethan: I've got something to tell u
Me: (thinking- damn...wat now...cant be anything good) okayy, what?
Ethan: Erm... actually i'm attached, and planning to ROM sometime later this year. I'm sorry. I never meant to hide it from you, but i really enjoyed our conversations alot. Just now my gf msg say she was coming over to pick up sthg from me so I had to log off in a hurry. Sorry. really sorry...
Me: WHAT?!?!?!

[curiouslala]

Originally Posted by kittymae

yes dajie lala!!
the last i heard, he is still working in a bank, and a swinging bachelor...
Interestingly, many of his exes ii heard, are now happily married.

Walau..
Me no da jie la..
Not yet 25 lo..
My ex also mostly got gf liao..
Me still forever alone leh..


Bro dr.slump:
Maybe we could arrange recording business for those broken hearted singer.. I smell money.. lol

[kittymae]

Originally Posted by queeniegal

Haha no like button here la....
Yeah.. I just sorta sorted my thoughts I put my changed me on someone who I like ha I think he can't breathe now. Feeling I'm too demanding at times. I miss the old me sigh but another side of me always said cannot have history repeats haha torn apart sigh

I used to work with bankers wahahahahahaha

Lol If the banker drive xxx car change to yyy car lol value ard same can le ha.. See I can remember some to contribute ornot ha
But is really small maybe we might know each other or hv common friend wahahaha

i understand totally!!! *hugs* girls understand each other best lahz...somehow..hahaha :X

really? haha... i also used to work directly with the bankers, now i still do to some degree, but not as much as before sure sure! yea, for all u know we might be acquainted... u part of the raffles crowd or mbfc crowd now? lol

Originally Posted by drslump99

Laugh Out Loud, is there a chance I stalk you?
We dun even know each other, except in SBF.

When I am down and out, I like to go sing my heart out.
It helps a little.
After the tears stop flowing, so will the pain.

Originally Posted by queeniegal

Haha agreed with u.. Sing out will help..
I does it too. Always late night I sing haha..

steady la both of u...
welcome to the meow meow KTV club~ where u can sing u hearts out in the comforting presence of like minded friends... forget those troubles, those sorrows and be refreshed (sore throats may be included, pls enquire upon departure) lols

[kittymae]

Originally Posted by curiouslala

Walau..
Me no da jie la..
Not yet 25 lo..
My ex also mostly got gf liao..
Me still forever alone leh..


Bro dr.slump:
Maybe we could arrange recording business for those broken hearted singer.. I smell money.. lol

age is only a number. the wiseness in ur words...respect! lols...
kinda expected tho, so far a fair number of i interact with a younger than i am.. :S
cant help but admit...old liao!

but u young..u still got time to find someone

[Rain-Men]

Thanks for penning down your experiences here.......hm...sorry to hear about that first bad experience with K..but somehow curious to find out how your story shall unfold...*eagerly waiting for the words to flow sis.....

[queeniegal]

Haha I'm in between raffles n mbfc (:

I'm singing whole night thru 叮当- 一个人不可能 .. Damn nice!

Kitty dun remind me!!! I'm freaking old too!

Yeah maybe we are! Lol..

[curiouslala]

Originally Posted by kittymae

age is only a number. the wiseness in ur words...respect! lols...
kinda expected tho, so far a fair number of i interact with a younger than i am.. :S
cant help but admit...old liao!

but u young..u still got time to find someone

Me wise? Lol..
I just learn from my offline n online friends la..
Few of my online friend are love coach..

Love also don't recognized age mah..
About me finding someone, let see how it roll la..

Pls do continue..

But I think u will do something and tempted him. Make him broke up with his fiance. Like reconstructing what happened between u, A and K.

Hope this isn't spoiler.. LOL~

[kittymae]

Ethan: I've got something to tell u
Me: (thinking- damn...wat now...cant be anything good) okayy, what?
Ethan: Erm... actually i'm attached, and planning to ROM sometime later this year. I'm sorry. I never meant to hide it from you, but i really enjoyed our conversations alot. Just now my gf msg say she was coming over to pick up sthg from me so I had to log off in a hurry. Sorry. really sorry...
Me: WHAT?!?!?!

I had flashbacks of my past with K.
Surely it was better to nip this in the bud, or at the very least, draw up some 'ground rules' before things develop beyond the point of no return.

Ethan: ... can we? (missed out beginning part of his sentence as i was loss in thought)
Me: huh? what again?
Ethan: I was saying, if it was still possible to keep in touch. Really only as friends.
Me: do you actually think of me only as a friend?
Ethan: errh..huh?
Me: If I'm really just a friend, then why did you have to frantically log off when your gf came over? Isn't is more suspicious if you hide it?
Ethan: i see.

(there was a short pause as we both gathered our thoughts)

Ethan: i'm sorry, maybe that wasn't the best thing to do, but maybe you're right, maybe i do think of you as more than a friend. So i felt guilty towards my gf so..
Me: well, in this case, i think perhaps its best we stop contacting each other.
Ethan: must be so extreme? cannot just keep in contact?
Me: aiya..i dunno. i'm tired. going to sleep. gdnight.

for the next few days, i never replied any of the message Ethan sent me. I rejected his calls.
Perhaps I should have been more upfront with him and told him straight that I feel like talking or even seeing him. but I guess if i did that, i would be sealing my own 'fate' that i would lose him- even as a friend.

I was making my way back from the MRT station after work one day about 2 weeks later. I had begun to put the incident with Ethan behind me.
He also had begun to contact me lesser and I hadn't received any calls or texts from him in the last 3 days either.
Then i felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and saw Ethan.

Ethan: Hi. Can we talk? Please?
Me: erhh...
Ethan: I broke up with my gf 3 days ago.
Me: Huh!?!?!

[studdyme]

camping for more!

[mr_missile]

wow ts couldn't sleep and posted at 2+ am and then posted again just now at 10+ am. just hope it is not the recollection of the past bad experiences that has kept ts awake.

great writing sis. joining the campers here. anybody want a sandwich?

[yawnzzz]

Nice story startup babe... Keep it coming. Camping here for more.