The Departure of my ex...

[Klein76]

Bro,Be strong and move on....I am touched by ur thread...Life is cruel at times.....learn to let go and time will heal.....

[Rangers]

Originally Posted by dirtyhairy

Yo Bro Rangers....I can only offer you my heartfelt sympathy
for being such a gentleman and so good to your dearest departed lady
I was hopeful until the end that there could be just an iota of ray
...of hope that perhaps she might pull through and she'd be okay
now your precious is gone while my sick PRC lover does not seem too strong
a liver failing sufferer, I can sense the helplessness
as she tries to cope with her illness
Sadly, as I watch her slowly and excruciatingly wither away
a miracle I seek and I pray
for her recovery...and her will to want to live nd love again for one more day!
Heaven knows how hard I try till my finances run dry
bcos it's a bonus just to hear her voice and know that she's still alive...

bro... i can understand how u feel... it takes alot of strength and courage to love a person with no conditions.. we have to be strong in order to help our loved ones... God bless....

[kruiser_2008]

Bro ranger, I dun dare to claim to understand the dept of your sorrow. But a dear friend of mine has just passed on a month ago, and at least I understand what you are going through right now...

Time actually does not heal everything, all it does is to numb down the pain and anger and sorrow, make it so distant and tiny that one is able to go on with life at all... You must try to continue living your life the way you wanted it to be, if not for your own sake then for her sake.

And lastly, give yourself a chance to find your partner in life eventually. A good man like you has room in his heart for more than one love. Your GF would have wanted you to find your own happiness as well.

Hang in there bro! It's hard but I believe you can pull through eventually. We are all in here for you.

kruiser_2008

[Rangers]

Originally Posted by kruiser_2008

Bro ranger, I dun dare to claim to understand the dept of your sorrow. But a dear friend of mine has just passed on a month ago, and at least I understand what you are going through right now...

Time actually does not heal everything, all it does is to numb down the pain and anger and sorrow, make it so distant and tiny that one is able to go on with life at all... You must try to continue living your life the way you wanted it to be, if not for your own sake then for her sake.

And lastly, give yourself a chance to find your partner in life eventually. A good man like you has room in his heart for more than one love. Your GF would have wanted you to find your own happiness as well.

Hang in there bro! It's hard but I believe you can pull through eventually. We are all in here for you.

kruiser_2008

Thanks bro... once everything has been cleared... yup i will need to move on with life...

[skirtchaser639]

Live strong bro Rangers!
It is not difficult to die, the tough part is to continue living for the loved ones.

i've experience a couple of death here and there in my life, non comparable to yours.
However, the thing i learned is that whatever memory you have, they are with you for a life time.
Never forgot the good times you have with the person stay forever, let the bad memory fade away.

for only remembering the wonderful journey together, will the person continue to live in you and makes you stronger.
hogging onto the grudge or unpleasant memory will only decay your life slowly

am sure bro Rangers, you will live strong and live good for your loved ones.

[bringiton]

Bro, my deepest condolence. Life is cruel at times, its not always that we can find someone who we deem as a life companion. And when you find that special someone, you never know how will it end up to be. Its very very big hearted of you in this case. I salute your spirit and hope all goes well for you after all these. Take time off to let your emotions recollect and don't let the past drag you down.

[Rangers]

Originally Posted by bringiton

Bro, my deepest condolence. Life is cruel at times, its not always that we can find someone who we deem as a life companion. And when you find that special someone, you never know how will it end up to be. Its very very big hearted of you in this case. I salute your spirit and hope all goes well for you after all these. Take time off to let your emotions recollect and don't let the past drag you down.

She has left behind alot of beauitful memories.. which i will never forget in my life...

[Reaper]

Originally Posted by Rangers

She has left behind alot of beauitful memories.. which i will never forget in my life...

My deepest condolences and heartfelt sympathies to you.

Remebering the memories and remembering her is an important thing. But do not let it control your life. It is how we deal with it tha makes or breaks us....

[Rangers]

Bros.. sorry for nt posting as i am outstationed..

Part 9:

Till that moment.. when the body was put in the icy cold coffin.. i slowly
accept the cruel fact that she is already gone.. Memories flood my mind as
i stared at the coffin... Although i am tired... but i just cant seem to fall asleep... During the second day of the Wake... i received a phone call from my collague...

Shirleen: r u k?..
Me: k... what is up?..
Shirleen: Where is the Wake held?.. can i attend it?..
Me: Sure.. address given..
Shirleen: c u later..

I am totally exhausted by then.. drained out both emotionally and physically... At abt evening.. Shirleen arrived... u aged a alot is the first comment that she commented... After paying her respects.. i attended to her with drinks...

Shirleen: u look worn out... did u managed to get some sleep last nite?..
Me: Nope.. the moment i closed my eyes... i think of her...
Shirleen: u have to stay strong... cos i heard that u will be outstationed soon..
Me:K.. i will be fine..
All along i realised that shirleen was looking at me in a very funny way...

Shirleen: Let find a place to tok..
Me: k then..

Slowly.. we went to the park nearby.. All along we were quite quiet.. For me.. i am too upset to tok much... and she was quite used to my quiet ways already..( We have been collagues and friends for the past 2 years plus)

Finally she broke the silence...

Shirleen: Will u forget her eventually and move on with yr life?..
Me: Y did u ask me this question?..
Shirleen:Just ans me..
Me: In terms of my career.. i will have to move on... if it is abt relationships...
i dunno...
Shirleen: She is already gone... There is no need for me to waste further time on her..
Me:I know... but she still lived in my heart......

There was long pause after that... nobody of us uttered a single word and i sent her to the bus stop...

To be continued..

[Rangers]

Part 10:

The 3 days of Wake is finally over and i resumed my work on my forth day...
The working trip was confirmed by my mangaer and i will be leaving soon for Shanghai within 4 days... Proposals were prepared and i am glad that my job was taking off some of my attention away from my ex..

Shirleen: nt knocking off yet...
Me: nt so soon.. i am giving a final touch of my work..
Shirleen: let me help u then with the sorting out of the documents then..
Me: K thanks a lot..

Soon.. the work was finished.. and we left for dinner together...

Shirleen: Have u been thinking over the question that i have asked..
Me: Nope... just let nature take it course..
Shirleen:U shd know my feelings for u rite now....

I am shocked at that moment.. nt expecting this kind of response from her...

Me: Ah... i am comfortable with as a collague and friend...
Shirleen: is that all?..
Me: No woman will accept the fact that i loved my ex so much...
Shirleen: Y r u always so sturbbon when it comes to feelings.... anyway i know the facts...
Me: Nope.. cant commit now.. too many things on my mind...

The dinner itself is gloomy as i dunno how to cope with this sudden situation...

To be continued...

[Rangers]

Part 11:

It is impossible between us... i told her before i went to Shanghai... I would
rather told u the truth then to keep u waiting... Having said that.. i hung up
the phone and leave for the airport... I am carrying too much emotional burdens myself and is nt ready to commit myself to another relationship unless she is someone i truly love... But commiting for the sake for the sake of commiting is another issue together... Though my bro always advise me to have another gf... it will help me to forget my ex but i dun agreed with him...
She is nt an subsitute... i will replied...

The nite view of Shanghai is indeed very beauitful and i really wished that my ex is with me rite now... Looking at her photo only increase my longing and angony... I kept her photos and resumed with my work...

Jason: Guys.. r u ready to check out the niteclubs later... Our first nite in Shanghai... and CO nt around... Mai tu liao...
Me: Count me out... Enjoy yrselfs..

The rest left... i am alone to myself.. numbing myself with work... Work seem to be the only antidote to my suffering now.. Received a msn from shirleen and i quickly block her away...

To be continued...

[Rangers]

Hi Bro Hairy..

How have u been?.. no worries will keep u and family in prayers.. Stay strong..

[DTCEPL]

I have a similar sad experience, the day that she left me for good, she took everything away from me, I am also as good as dead. I lost the will to live another day.....

[beauthaiful]

Move on with life, dude....

I am very touched by your story. But what's past is past. Still gotta carry on with life, and dont worry. You might find better one soon?

Cheer up!!

[wingcross]

I think TS will be emotinally attached for awhile.
I think I will as well especially before her death, she ask for the ring to be put into her finger.