The story of my love life, my sex life.

[uansr]

Thanks for the update...keep going

[Ilovetosex]

Camping bro..

[LonelyMalaysian]

David was Liz's classmate. Not very handsome, but I guess he's miles ahead in terms of looks compared to me. Rather scrawny, tho. But nevertheless he's still a smart chap and often sit together with Liz in class. I was always aware about what's going on between Liz and David as she always update me about her class stuffs. And after a couple of months the rumors began; that David likes Liz. It got worst when Sham (she was at pre-U as well, same class as Liz) became very supportive of David. David knew his way around Liz's friends pretty well, and in no time they were hanging out together after school and on weekends.

Liz knew I was jealous and didn't like what was going on, and so she chose to spend more time with me instead, away from her friends and David. That put me in a bad light; her friends thought I was keeping her away from them and they started having negative thoughts about me. The truth is I didn't know what to do at all. Everything was fine at one point, then in the next picture everything felt shaky. I wasn't sure how Liz felt towards David, but I've never seen her so close with another guy before.

Eventually all the worries screwed me up. Liz tried to assure me that everything would be fine, but I couldn't handle the jealousy. I began to flop my exams as I couldn't study at all, and I haven't been able to find time to study with Liz as she's always with David and her study group. Before I knew it pre-U ended and I screwed it all up. Liz was sad and felt guilty for abandoning me through the final months of exams, but what was done, was done. She went on to apply for courses in universities as well as scholarships, hoping to land one in a local-U to reduce her parents' burden while I remained unsure of my own future. Before I joined pre-U, my parents were enthusiastic about sending me to an express foundation course before hurling me off to the U.S. or Europe, but I chose to stay because of Liz. And look what it turned out to be. It felt as if an unseen force is ripping me & Liz apart, creating a gorge in between that grew wider as time passes. I never knew who to turn to at that point. I realise I was too engrossed in the relationship with Liz that I've forgotten to make any friends at all.

One fine day, I called up Kylie. She was at work, and I needed to talk. I really felt the need to take things off my chest, and I don't know who better to talk to but Liz's sister.

Kylie: "Hi M! What's up?"
M: "Hey, uh... I know you're working right now.. Sorry to disturb you.."
Kylie: "....is everything okay, M?"
M: "Yeah... I really need someone to talk to right now.."
Kylie: "..what happened? Where's Liz?"
M: "...it's a long story, Kylie.. I'm not sure if I should talk to you about this over the phone.. What time are you getting off work?"
Kylie: "M, what's wrong? Is Liz alrite? Are you alrite?"
M: "Yeah, yeah.. She's fine.. She's probably out with her friends.. or something. Honestly I have no idea where is she now, but she's safe that's for sure."
Kylie: "Okay.. Then why didn't you join her?"
M: "Like I said.. It's a long story.. What time are you getting off work?"
Kylie: "I'm off as usual at 5. Will be home around 5.30 I guess?"
M: "Alright.. Go home, and maybe I'll pick you up and we'll go somewhere, then I'll tell you the whole story."
Kylie: "Hmm.. Alrite."

That couple of hours of wait was a long one. I didn't know what to do, so I just waited at Liz's house. Her grandma greeted me and asked me in for a cup of milo (as always), and she noticed the change of mood in me.

Granny: "M ah.. You ok ma?"
M: "Yes, ah ma? I'm fine.."
Granny: "You don't look ok la.. Argue with Liz ah?"
M: "No lah.."
Granny: "Then why are you here so early? You always go out with Liz mah. Where is she?"
M: "Oh.. I come to wait for Kylie.."
Granny: "Kylie? Why wait her?"
M: "I got things to talk to her.."
Granny: "Hmm.. M.. Nothing in this world cannot be solved.."
M: "Ha?"
Granny: "You're a smart boy.. You will understand what I said.."

Ah Ma's words ringed in my head, and I tried to figure out what she meant. Before I knew it I dozed off on the sofa, awaken only when Kylie shook me.

Kylie: "Oi, wake up."
M: "Eh.. Come back already?"
Kylie: "Yeah.. You said you wanna tell me something?"
M: "Right.. Let's go. Don't think it's convenient to tell you here, later Ah Ma heard or your parents come back then not good la."
Kylie: "Ok.."

We went to Starbucks nearby their house, and after buying drinks we settled down comfortably. I took a sip and looked out the window, thinking of how should I break the news to her.

Kylie: "So?" *sipping on hot coffee*
M: "Kylie... I don't know how to tell you this.."
Kylie: "What? Liz is pregnant?" *chuckles*
M: "Please, this isn't a joke or anything funny."
Kylie: "Whoa.. Ok, ok.. Rarely see you this serious. What's up?"
M: "I'm not sure how Liz feel about me anymore."
Kylie: "What do you mean? I thought you guys are fine all along?"
M: "I think.. She met a guy in pre-U and..."
Kylie: "...M, are you serious?"
M: "You know I wouldn't joke about things like this."
Kylie: "...are they together? Have you confronted Liz about this?"
M: "No, no.. They're not together. And yes I've talked to Liz about this, countless of times.. They're not together, and Liz assured me of that. But I am still very uncomfortable with how close the both of them are.. Plus the fact that this guy already admitted to liking her."
Kylie: "...M, I'm so sorry. I was always worried about you breaking my sister's heart, but I never thought it'd be the other way round."
M: "It's fine, Kylie. I haven't had proof that there's anything going on between them, but it bothered me a lot. She started hanging out with her friends and whenever that guy is around, she wouldn't ask me to tag along."
Kylie: "Okay.."
M: *voice breaks* "I don't know what else I can do, Kylie.. I have no confidence in myself and I felt threatened, and Liz is affirming the other guy's action.."
Kylie: "Hey.. Hey, hey.. It's alrite.. You've been a great guy, a great boyfriend to Liz and I'm sure you'd be a very good brother-in-law too. Maybe she was blinded by what's going on.."
M: "I don't know, Kylie.. Pre-U ended, and now I'm aimless not knowing what to do next. I lost my aim without Liz, Kylie.."
Kylie: "I understand... I can't promise to fix things for you, but I will try talking to Liz about this, alrite?"
M: "I'm not even sure if that's the right thing to do.. Everything just seem so hopeless now.."
Kylie: "Everything will be fine.. Trust me.. And touchwood, even if things didn't go well for the both of you, you're still a great family friend, especially to Dad. He's very very fond of you, and it would be a shame if things didn't work out between you & Liz."
M: "...Yeah, all thanks to you."
Kylie: "I promise I'll talk to her, alrite?"
M: "Okay.."

Kylie did talked with Liz, and the outcome wasn't good. Liz SMS-ed me that very night, and she was quite pissed with me.

Liz: "M, what did you told my sister?"
M: "So I guess she talked to you already, then?"
Liz: "Why do you have to go talk about David to her?"
M: "...then? Who else am I supposed to talk to?"
Liz: "How many times do I have to tell you there's nothing between me & David?"
M: "...and how many times do I have to confront you about him? How many times do I have to tell you that I feel neglected?"
Liz: "....."
M: "Am I even your boyfriend anymore?"
Liz: "...yes."
M: "I don't feel like I am. I'm not happy about David. I'm not happy about how you chose to go out with him and your friends, but not me."
Liz: "...but didn't we spend enough time together? I need time with my friends too."
M: "Yeah well maybe I'm just jealous."
Liz: "...I'm sorry."
M: "Don't tell me all that."
Liz: "....I got accepted into Durham."
M: "...that course you applied for?"
Liz: "...yes."
M: "Did you get scholarship, then?"
Liz: "...fully covered."
M: "How many years?"
Liz: "...4."
M: "...right. One bad news after another."
Liz: "...I'm sorry, dear.. I promise I'll spend the rest of my time with you before I leave.."
M: "Right."
Liz: "...I won't see him as often anymore also.."
M: "Okay."
Liz: "...I'm sorry.."
M: "You know what.. I need to get some sleep.. I need some time alone too.. I'll talk to you again tomorrow."
Liz: "...."
M: "Goodnight."
Liz: "...night darling."

So she's going to UK, and here I am stranded with useless pre-U results that gets me nowhere. What can I do? What should I do? I was broken. I was unhappy. I cried that night. The love of my life is about to leave me. For 4 years. And seeing how things were, the future looked dark.

(to be continued)

[jjking87]

oh no~~~
most of the dude lose their significant half when they study oversea~~

[LonelyMalaysian]

Originally Posted by jjking87

oh no~~~
most of the dude lose their significant half when they study oversea~~

It wasn't easy for me to type out that previous post. The memories were too much to bear. But more to come.

[JustTryLah]

Things will work out

[Blackpen]

TS, don't be sad..i support you!

[opstop]

Dont give up bro

[barbed wire]

camping for more

[JimmyNeutron]

Bro TS,

great story, keep it coming

bump bump

[BlackSmithsson]

update update

been hanging there for too long

[di1on]

Waiting for you to update brader !
it is a nice story you have here

[Blackpen]

dont stop there for so long..im waiting

[LonelyMalaysian]

You know, deep down we are all hypocrites. We judge others' decisions and dictate what is right or wrong without first looking at ourselves. Or, we do the exact same thing that we hate to see others doing. Perhaps after seeing what happened between Liz & David, I got so broken, so numb to the point I don't know what's right anymore. People think I'm overreacting, overprotective. Fact is, we as guys can sense when a girl start losing interest in us. From there on, it's pure logic and simple inductive reasoning to figure it out. If you can't, well... You're probably not sensitive enough, or you are a cheater yourself that small details became oblivious to you.

I wanted to fix things with Liz, but somehow I felt that this time it's just not possible. She became too occupied with David, and well.. You can only give so much attention to two person at a time. The novelty effect of David in her life obviously made him more valuable to her, as opposed to the same ol' me. Even so, I was still trying hard to mend things, and Kylie has been great supporting me through it. I planned for a short trip to the east coast with Liz. I wanted time with her. Ever since David came between us we haven't had much time together. It was gonna be a 3-day trip, and my goal was to get Liz to see how much we have actually gone through together and how everything will go to waste if she don't wake up from this slumber, this daydream she's in.

Around this time, relationship between me & her family was at its peak. KJ graduated from secondary school, and I attended his graduation ceremony together with Kylie and both their parents. Yeap, Liz did not attend her own brother's graduation. Said that she had to meet up with her school friends. We all knew she went out with David, we just kept quiet about it. It breaks my heart to see how she's obsessed about him. KJ was equally sad, but I brought him and Kylie out for movie and food at the mall after that to cheer and congratulate him. I caught Kylie tearing up a couple of times while looking at me. It breaks all of us. Before movie, KJ went to the toilet and I had the opportunity to talk to Kylie.

M: "Hey... What's wrong? Too happy see KJ graduate high school ah? Hahaha.."
Kylie: "Huh?"
M: "Talking bout you la.. I saw your tears just now."
Kylie: "...M.."
M: "Yeap?"
Kylie: "...you don't have to do this, you know.."
M: "Do what?"
Kylie: "...you don't have to be so nice to all of us.."
M: "Well it's KJ's graduation.. Bring him out to celebrate also ok gua..?"
Kylie: "...I feel guilty when you're so nice to all of us while on the other hand Liz she..."
M: "Hey, hey.. It's alrite. We can talk about Liz another time. Don't worry bout it now.. Come, gimme a hug."
Kylie: "I really don't know.." *starts tearing on my shoulder* "To think how my sister turned out to be..."
M: "It's alrite.. We can talk bout this later, at least after the movie after we send KJ home, alrite?"

KJ didn't know much about what was going on, but I guess he sensed something amiss, with Liz being at home less frequently and with me being around most of the time without her. I realized that I had inadvertently built my life around her family, and that's the only world I know of right then.

Kylie: "You're a wonderful guy, M.."
M: "I know right? Hahahaha.."
Kylie: "Here comes KJ." *wipes her face*
M: "You ready for movie, KJ?"
KJ: "Yeah!"
M: "Let's go!"

After the movie we went for dinner at Chili's and sent KJ home. Liz still haven't came home. Well, what was I expecting. We told KJ to give us some privacy, so he got off the car first while we chat on.

M: "So, Kylie.."
Kylie: "Yes..?"
M: "I just wanna tell you that I'll be taking Liz to the east coast for a short holiday before she go to UK.."
Kylie: "Ok.."
M: "Ok? No objections?"
Kylie: "Why would I object?"
M: "I don't know.. Usually you have a lot of objections whenever I say I wanna bring her somewhere far.. Hahaha.."
Kylie: "...I really don't care anymore what you do, as long as everything can return to how they were previously.."
M: "Kylie.."
Kylie: "Hmm?"
M: "I'm pretty sure things wouldn't go back to the way they were anymore.."
Kylie: "Why would you say that?"
M: "Just how I feel.. I don't think it would work, but I still wanted time with her.. I don't know when we will break up, so every minute counts.. Although I'm sharing these minutes with David."
Kylie: "...M. I'm sorry."
M: "It's not your fault.."
Kylie: "..."
M: "Anyway, if we really do break up, do know that I will still be around. Anything you need, just give me a call."
Kylie: "...why?"
M: "I really don't have another world to live in. This is my life. You all are my family. My friends. I love all of you just as much as I love Liz. I hope you can at least allow me to stick around a little bit if me & Liz really didn't work out."
Kylie: "Don't be silly. You're always welcomed here!"
M: *smiles*

Remember when I said earlier that we are all hypocrites? It was about a week before the trip with Liz, and I was at a birthday party. I've not talked about this friend before, so lets name him Jay. Jay was.. well he was a good friend. He shared the same birthday with another dude, Elvin. So on this special day, we celebrated both their birthdays on the same day. That's where I met Naomi, my most recent ex. Yes, the pretty one with huge 34D knockers who I told you guys earlier that wants me to continue screwing her.

She was Jay's girlfriend at that time.

(to be continued)

[NikkoBaby]

Nice life story TS.. *thumb up* juz read at 4am & gt me read till page 11 & realised it alr 6am!

I gt affected alittle when seeing the part TS keep smelling Liz hair.. juz like hw my ex always do tat to me & i love to ask him why too.. it stir back abit of memories & i've to put my phone aside to stop thinking & remind myself it's over.. n i wonder if why all of TS other r/s after Liz wont work out is it bcos it clearly Liz is the one of only & TS couldn't let go thus no other r/s would ever work out..as the rest could never be compare with Liz.. i have a fair share of this kind of experience as well..

Nevertheless.. keep writing TS! Looking forward to yr next posting! Cheers!