My first love...21 years ago

[fictionman]

Soon our holiday in KL is upon us...We finish our shift at 3pm...Went to JB to catch our respective bus...She's going back to her home town,Teluk Intan, & me to my hometown in Ipoh..She will come over to Ipoh after a few days & we will catch a bus to KL 2gether...But before we parted in JB we had a small argument...I ask her if she's going to visit her ex-bf parents who are staying in her hometown...She said yes

I was abit unhappy abt this..But she said they knw abt their engagement so its only right she pay them a visit...I was afraid they might brain wash her...But she says its only a courtesy visit...She scolded me for making her cry over this matter...I admit I get agitated easily but always manage to cool down aft few mins...Hence aft I hv cool down I apologize to her..She's ok aft tt...But she said tt she dont wat to go on the bus alone if she's sad over this matter...

I try to console her & it works...Board her bus together and lead her to her seat...Waited for her bus to depart b4 I boarded mine...But I'm still uneasy abt the whole visiting ex-bf parents thingy...Reach Ipoh & have 2 days on my own b4 M came over...The nite b4 she comes over to Ipoh she called me & told me wat time she would arrive...To me to hear her saying tt she would be coming over to Ipoh is such a relieve...

When she finally reach Ipoh I pick her up in my parents Toyota..She told me she would be spending the nite at her aunties hse since she need to visit them coz her parents hv bought them some foodstuff fm Teluk Intan...I try to persuade her to sleep over at my plc as its more convinient to board the bus to KL the next morning...Then she agree & I bought her home to meet my parents...Of coz we will be sleeping in diff room..

Morning came & we went for breakfast together wz my parents...Was glad tt M can get along wz my mom who can be a handful...Then we board our bus & off we go to KL...Of coz I told my mom we were meeting our friends there which got guys & girls...Hv to say this coz my mom dont knw we hv been sleeping together...We stayed 2 days in KL...We stayed at a 3 star hotel near Petaling St...We had a great time in KL..As a young couple we make love whenever we are in our room...I think I came 8 times in those 2 days...It was truly a magical 2 days in every aspect...

When we are enjoying ourselves time seems to fly us by...Soon enuff we are back in Spore wrkin our ass off serving ppl...Abt one mth later I suggested we go Genting Highlands & she agree...Off we went again just the 2 of us...We only stayed for one nite...But it was an eye opening trip for me as it was the first time I hv set foot in a casino...I was amaze to see gambling chips changing hands btw dealer & customers...We didnt really play much & as xpected lost all our gambling capital which was thank god only RM200

After abt one mth aft tt trip,M started to chg...Chg in appearance,socializing & towards me....She wats to wear contact lenses which I dont really approve off...Told her I like her wz specs but she got contacts anyway..Somehow all this changes makes me uneasy...Bcoz of this stimes I would be cold towards her...I dont knw why I did tt...Maybe I was feeling unsecure...CNY came & originally I had plan to go back Ipoh but aft I got to knw M wasnt going back I cancelled my leave & stay back in Spore..

Apart fm spending time with M during CNY we were lest happy tt all the food stalls are cloze during CNY..Only fast food was open..But somehow those few days we were not as close as we were b4...I could sense tt her mind was on sthing else...I was afraid to ask her wats on her mind bcoz I dont knw how will I react if its sthing tt I dont wat to knw...As we seem to be drifting apart,I knw I have to do sthing to salvage our relationship...I ask one of my colleague who is an NTUC member to book a chalet at Pasir Ris...Hopefully by spending time alone wz M we can work wats gone wrong in our relationship..

TBC...

[studdyme]

please carry on!

[Admiral]

Please continue. Thanks.

[fictionman]

I decided to bring along my roomate to Pasir Ris chalet as he is an avid photographer...But he will only be staying one nite only..He would take pics of M & me...We sort of bonded over the 2 days...Could see the old M as we talk & laugh...As the first nite my roomate was staying wz us,we didnt hv any intimate time 2gether...Aft my roomate has left on the 2nd day,M & I went to Bedok for dinner & catch a movie...On the way back to the chalet I was thinkin gosh its so nice to hv some1 to go back together wz aft a niteout...Its like a married couple...When it was time for bed we cuddle & kiss but we didnt make love...It seems like she was not really in the mood so I also didnt force the issue...

The next morning I was feeling bit hot so I kiss M & she dont seem to mind...So I remove all her clothings & began to kiss her from neck down to her pussy...I lick her for the very 1st time...Can see tt she's enjoying it..As a novice in this "field",I wasnt sure if I'm doing it correctly or not haha..Then aft awhile I stop my licking & just stop everything...I didnt proceed further...Sthing was in the back of my mind..Here is a naked girl infront of me & I didnt go on to make love to her...What is wrong wz me..

It seems tt an incident few days b4 this hv affected me..On tt day I wanted to make love to M but she rejected my advances...For once in our relationship I was deeply dissapointed by this...Why hv she chg???...So wz this feeling I still had fm tt day I stop myself in the chalet...The feeling was just not right...She ask me why I stop but I didnt say athing much...tired I said..She was wondering how could I be tired when my cock was aldy hard?!!..

And so we pack up & left the chalet & head to the hotel as both of us have to work de the 5pm shift...On the way in the mrt,I couldnt stop thinkin abt the real reason I stop myself fm making out wz M...I had look at her wallet when she was bathing aft she woke up...To my suprise I saw her ex-bf pic in her wallet...My world had just came crushing down...How come aft breaking up for 8 mths & his pic is still inside there??!!...

Really wanted to ask her face to face but I just couldnt bring myself...Worse was to follow...When she was at the cashier counter I overheard tt her colleague says tt her ex-bf called the hotel & ask where is M as she didnt return home...Her sis whom M was staying didnt tell him tt she was wz me..Slowly I began to fit all the puzzle pieces together on why M hvnt been herself lately...

As I couldnt really ask her myself,I wrote a 7 page letter expressing both my love & concerns...In it I also mention abt the pic in her wallet...As in the first time when we got together 8 mths ago when she wrote me a letter confessing shes not a virgin,this time she wrote back to me & the contents of this letter really dissapoints me...A total 360 degree turn fm the first letter...I cried when I read the letter...

TBC...

[eeemen]

Oh dear, dissapointment of your first love? More plz, cheers .................

[IBCBen]

TS must be a spare tire ... subsitute.

The reason why she didnt make love with TS that night is because her neh neh is full of love bites from her "ex-bf"

[DreamOfLust]

rejection is always the hardest to overcome....


TS, please continue ! =)

[LovePotion]

I like that this story isnt some fantasy about 5 women wanting to rape him and stuff, but i can feel how real this issue is to the TS. I think this makes for a much better story.

Please continue TS

[KobeTopGun]

Camping for more .

[American]

Please carry on.

[San Miguel]

very nice and real personal story. please continue bro...

[fictionman]

M wrote tt she admitted tt she hv chg in a certain way but she's still the same girl I knew 7 mths ago...Inside her heart she's still the same girl I fell in love with...Maybe it's me but the changes hv made my uneasy...

Previously she would give me all her undivided attention...When both of us are wrkin the same shift,we would become a very lovey dovey couple...I would go to the cashier counter & talk to her & she would smile & laugh...She was happy to see me each second of the day...But as she started to chg in her appearance & outlook in life,I couldnt accept it...Maybe its bcoz I was not the focus of her life anymore...I might be selfish but I want her to be mine & only mine...

I mean which guy dont wat their gf to love & cherish them!!...M says bcoz she was engage at a young age & then got to know me,she's always having a guy beside her & doesnt hv time for other friends...She just wants to hv knw more friends...But she says she still loves me like before...Though it's comforting to me to know this but somehow my heart is just having so many doubts..

Finally she says y she still kept her ex-bf pic in her wallet...She admits tt she still loves him...She still hopes tt he will wats her back...But she knws by having all this thoughts will be unfair to me...My heart sank when I read wat she has written abt her ex-bf...I was angry but I didnt really told her abt this...

But she can sense tt I hv changed in my attitude towards her...Stimes I would be cold towards her in the way I spoke to her..How can I be the same person tt loves her wholeheartly before now tt I knw she still hv feelings for her ex..I tried my best to be as normal as I could but I couldn't..I didnt really force her to choose between us...I dodge the topic hoping it would be resolve by itself..i knw I am in denial...I knw her ex is her 1st love just like she was my 1st love...I knw how strong the love of 1st love is...In a way I was giving up without much of a fight..

I was young...Only 22...Wasn't very mature enuff to knw wat really is true love..What I see in movies abt love doesnt really apply in the real world...She told me she felt sad tt I was cold towards her but she would not scold me for tt coz she says she's in the wrong also...People in the hotel was talking wat hv happen to us...Before this,we were like so happy...Being in the spotlight,I was feeling very pressurize abt our relationship...

TBC..

[billgate]

camping for more... keep it coming..

[fictionman]

Though M looks normal on the outside,I knw she is hurting inside..Her feelings are torn between 2 men...I wat her to choose me but my heart knws she wil still hv feelings for her ex...When I am alone at nite in my room,I would be thinkin wat shld I do...Wats the best way for me to lead a normal life again..

Deep in my heart I knw I will always be 2nd to her ex...I knw I hv to let her go...But I couldnt say this face to face..I wrote a letter saying I dont wat her to choose...Told M its better for all concern tt I was out of her life..It was so painful for me to wrote those few words...As I had gone back aft finishing my shift,M called me...I could hear in her voice tt she was cryin...She ask me why hv I come to my decision...I said I couldnt carry on with the charade tt everyhing is fine...Both of us didnt really talk wats going to happen...One of us hv to make a decision

She just kept quiet aft my explanation...I scolded her for hving not get her ex out of her mind...She says sorry & since I couldnt bear to hear her cryin anymore I hang up the phone...The next few days we nvr spoke when we saw each other while wrkin...I tried to avoid her...My heart will hurt when I see her...By sheer concidence I got a call frm my mom saying tt my former colleague in Ipoh have a job offer for me in KL...I was thinkin this is the best time to leave Spore & try to put the past behind me & start afresh...I told one of my colleague tt I m going to KL for an interview...And in turn he told M abt this...The interview went well & I was offered the job in the accounts line...

Upon returning to Spore,I tender my resignation...M gave me a letter...It seems tt both of us just couldnt talk to each other anymore...She wrote tt she was sad to hear tt I was going back to Msia...She wanted to ask me to stay but she says she got no right to do tt after hurting me...She regretted hurting me the way she did...Saying tt she still loves me makes me more angry at her...I was just counting down the days to leaving the hotel & get M out of my mind...Then one week b4 my last day,M called me saying tt she wats to meet me...

TBC....

[studdyme]

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