the 3 that changed me

[kittymae]

The Finale: Part 3

After seeing Ian off, I walked back to bed, feeling sore between the legs and a tad jelly-like too.
Rolled about feeling disconcerted.
Did I really want to end it with Ian just like that?

I couldn't

Hours later, having gotten some sleep, mind refreshed,
I made a choice.
It isn't easy to meet someone u could click with.
Someone who treated u genuinely, with respect, with sincerity, and cared.
It wasn't a "one-way only" kind of imbalanced relationship, with one party giving more or all...
That would be unhealthy, and end unhappily.

Dropped Ian a mail. Told him what I felt.
I couldn't let go so easily.
If possible, I would like to keep the door open, and see how things went. Let nature takes it course. Was he willing to the same?

Ian replied.
And his words... The ice wrapping my heart...melted. Totally.
I can't replicate it in all entirety obviously, but here's the general gist...
"No one is flawless... I accept u with all ur flaws, regardless of what u think ur flaws are.. Be ause u deserve happiness too"

A scarce few emails ding dongged around over the remaining days.

In his final one before he departed, stemming from what i told him before perhaps, about how I didn't know how to smile anymore. More than ever, it was tears I found....
"Don't cry anymore. Smile more ok? And smile because u want to"

I didn't meet Ian again after that, nor did I see him off at the airport.
But he did drop a text as he was boarding the plane

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The first 2 had brought hurt, but also helped me to grow up.
Did I regret all that happened with them? Perhaps once before, I did
looking back now. I don't really. They taught me much in their own way.
I learnt to be more independent, to pick myself up by myself.

But K and Ethan had also instilled in me a great distrust of relationships, towards the extent of being emotionally detached so as not to be hurt like that again.
Also, my self-confidence had been eroded.
Emotionally, mentally stretched and jaded. This took a toll on my physical self too, as I went thru a period of unexplained weightloss, a worrying 1-2kg per week.

These were some of the thoughts and feelings I had when I met Ian.
He reinstalled in me emotions I had not felt for awhile and more importantly, when with him, he made me smile. From the heart.

For those who commented I'm strong and all that etc etc despite everything, well, I truly wasn't really.
I'm just fortunate to have met Ian who accepted me as I am and taught me to love myself just that bit more. He both made encouraged me to smile again.

I'm still in contact with Ian tho not as frequent as I would like it to be.
But I'm grateful that despite,what happened between us, the age and time differences, we can still remain- friends.

And the promise- to keep smiling.
I'm working on it

And that's my story...not as riveting as others around perhaps but still, thanks for all who have followed it since day 1 and the encouragement, comments, feedbacks given.

[drslump99]

Originally Posted by curiouslala

lol..
I can firstly take u as hostage then bake u..

Oh no you dun.
Use the bazooka shoot Lala to a even far far away land
Lala is now in land of Orge .... Where Shrek is


Kitty is a very brave and nice Meowww
One day your real price Garfield with come purrrring at your paw
Till than, stay happy, healthy and keep purring .... Sexy moan of cats

[Iluminati]

Thank you very much Kitty for telling us your story. To relive those memories again to write these story down takes a great deal of courage and I admire that of you.

I wish you double happiness in your current or next relationship.
In the mean time, take care and keep eating your salmon yea so that you glow with rosy cheek

We will definitely be looking forward to your next stories yea

Last but not least, I would like to apologize from the bottom of my heart if any of my comment or silly joke has accidentally hurt your feeling or offended you ya

[kittymae]

Originally Posted by drslump99

Kitty is a very brave and nice Meowww
One day your real price Garfield with come purrrring at your paw
Till than, stay happy, healthy and keep purring .... Sexy moan of cats

Garfield? No thanks, I'll pass

Originally Posted by Iluminati

for me expensive up to the stage of TWG is more than enough already

I'm suddenly reminded on their high tea set...nice crumbly scones n tea jelly with cream...slurp.
But so frightfully ex!

Originally Posted by Iluminati

Thank you very much Kitty for telling us your story. To relive those memories again to write these story down takes a great deal of courage and I admire that of you.

I wish you double happiness in your current or next relationship.
In the mean time, take care and keep eating your salmon yea so that you glow with rosy cheek

We will definitely be looking forward to your next stories yea

Last but not least, I would like to apologize from the bottom of my heart if any of my comment or silly joke has accidentally hurt your feeling or offended you ya

I'm apprehensive abt relationships after all that. In fact,maybe lost some belief in that. Haha but still, thanks for the well wishes.
I'll enjoy my salmon in e meanwhile.

And no need apologize la... all of us here, Urself included are pretty good sports and helped enliven the thread a lot.

(:

[curiouslala]

Originally Posted by drslump99

Oh no you dun.
Use the bazooka shoot Lala to a even far far away land
Lala is now in land of Orge .... Where Shrek is


Kitty is a very brave and nice Meowww
One day your real price Garfield with come purrrring at your paw
Till than, stay happy, healthy and keep purring .... Sexy moan of cats

I'm still here unker..beside u.. see?
if u can't see me, no worries, I'll be here always..
until u give me my 1kg kopi luwak..

[Coffeecans]

Dear listeners,

A special song dedicated to Kitty for penning down her beautiful story. Although things didn't end the fairy tale way but am sure he did leave some wonderful memories that will always leave the sweetest tinge of color to your days. Life is always beautiful with these little moments. Smile and keep your world painted with colors and light.



From the dj coffeecans

It's time also for the finale of Shane's life.

[drslump99]

Originally Posted by curiouslala

I'm still here unker..beside u.. see?
if u can't see me, no worries, I'll be here always..
until u give me my 1kg kopi luwak..

Announcing the lazy doctor is going to Hibernation mode
So please leave comment, he will reply when he wakes up in Spring.

In the mean time, there is a dr slump robot on duty.
The robot will bake pizza and serve dim sum.
Please dun abuse it.

[acidicavex]

lol kk i copy bro coffee let me dedicate this beyond to u

[queeniegal]

[QUOTE="Coffeecans;8024971"]Dear listeners,



One of my fav song!

Kitty! go for holidays n many holiday create more happy moment in life to remember..

That what I did after I broke off!
study and work is tough but that the only way to make myself super bz ha nt to think of past.

It always be a part of u inside your memories, you need time to self heal. Lets jiayou together ba

I'm sure next stop in your life will be much interesting and wonderful (=

[kittymae]

Thanks for the dedications kopi bro + acidicavex
Just nice, can use for my KTV therapy. Lols...



Queenie: Yep yep, Im stalking groupon pages...plan a short getaway when I'm clearing my leave.

Oh. Believe me, my life is pretty much interesting at the moment thanks to people ard me. Lols

[Sen5eS]

That probably explains the smile then and I'm sure you look better with you hair let down hehe
find a nice beach resort ... bring along your swim wear and can continue stories from there ...
So next installment coming up ? Drslump don't m.i.a. yet ... keep camp fire burning ...

Hi .. I'm mister T ... nice to meet you!

[queeniegal]

Hmmmm can go Laos, Cambodia, Cebu.. I went last yr nice place (:

Nt much good deals recently! I got a very expensive air ticket to bkk :x

[verytired]

An evil kitten made me fight sleep til now...

Good story. Fantastic writing skills. Up your rep, thou I only got 2points.

Now I truly very tired. Cheers!

[kittymae]

Originally Posted by Sen5eS

That probably explains the smile then and I'm sure you look better with you hair let down hehe
find a nice beach resort ... bring along your swim wear and can continue stories from there ...
So next installment coming up ? Drslump don't m.i.a. yet ... keep camp fire burning ...

Hi .. I'm mister T ... nice to meet you!

The smile??? What smile? Lols
Brewing the flames of controversy huh I see...haha

Originally Posted by queeniegal

Hmmmm can go Laos, Cambodia, Cebu.. I went last yr nice place (:

Nt much good deals recently! I got a very expensive air ticket to bkk :x

There are some! Must go a few such websites then can locate e good deals. Waiting to hit the " buy" button only. Haha

Originally Posted by verytired

An evil kitten made me fight sleep til now...

Good story. Fantastic writing skills. Up your rep, thou I only got 2points.

Now I truly very tired. Cheers!

Thanks for e support!
Erm....I'm not an evil kitten.. Well, maybe selectively, and for now especially focused on Mr.T. It's quite enjoyable.

Hope u get some good rest!

[queeniegal]

Really? Hmmm I so far nv try voucher before. Always see see
I will check it out lol.. I alway zuji nia -.-