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peanut123 · #76 17-01-2012, 11:32 PM

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Originally Posted by stupiderthanu

okay... how now???

why didn't they tell us in school that herpes is so much more rampant than HIV?? so much that I didn't know to worry about...

dude, I don't know if you are naive, stupid, or just yanking our chain.

I'll give you the benefit of the doubt.

The fact is STDs, apart from HIV, are not fatal if treated. Though some are incurable, they are just mere annoyances when they flare up. They don't kill you or inconvenience you other than you should not have sex during those periods. It's no worse than having, say, a flu or a fever now and then.

It's the same : during those times when you have a flu or a fever, you probably don't have sex because you feel unwell, and you will have bouts of these throughout your life. You wait till it blows over and life resumes. And yet nobody frets over flus and fevers. So it's the same for STDs. There is no need to be paranoid over it.

stupiderthanu · #77 18-01-2012, 09:58 AM

Okay, let me give you a background of myself.

I am under 30. Haven't even been through life to experience it like you all have. I was young and stupid. I did not think of the consequences of my actions.

How to have a future if I have STDs which would flare up and can effect my potential partner, and have children? I'm sorry, I know all of this is my fault. I have taken small steps thus far, tested (so far) HIV -ve, Syphilis -ve.

Would be doing that again in a month's time.

I think I'm beginning to understand what I need. I need to read experiences of people who underwent these tests, negative or positive. Recommendations. Etc.

Should I go for a complete STD test? The nature of the test being confidential and not anonymous is deterring me from taking it. But, I know that it is for the protection of my family, for my future, for my future family (if I would be blessed to have one), and for the peace of mind.

At first it was HIV. Then -ve. Thank God.

Then syphilis. Then -ve. Thank God.

I thank everyone here for letting me move and take these small steps. But I hope you all can understand where I'm coming from.

If it's any consolation, I'm beginning to feel better after each -ve result.

I deeply apologise to cause any anger, especially during such an auspicious time for most members of these forum.

simsim87 · #78 18-01-2012, 11:49 AM

btw guys, juz wanna ask. i always had protected sex but the cd doesnt cover my dick entirely. 1/4 of my dick at the bottom is sometimes exposed. may i know if hiv can be transmitted that way?

stupiderthanu · #79 24-01-2012, 12:17 PM

Waiting for 3 month mark to a full test.. still very much afraid.. HIV -ve, Syp -ve so far..

Thinking of going AFA test again at 3 month mark..

Anyone has got any experience with Hep B testing or symptoms before?? And also gonorrhea/chlamydiae which shows no symptoms??

I'm sorry.. Just looking for experiences to calm myself down.. sorry in advanced to seem stupid and irritating..

tartar26 · #80 24-01-2012, 10:33 PM

yes , you are quite stupid. So , how will you solve your stupidity?

stupiderthanu · #81 26-01-2012, 10:08 AM

wait for the 3 month mark and test AFA, i suppose..

And then full test at DSC, i guess..

I'm getting so sick and tired of worrying already.. the twitching that I feel a number of times everyday may be due to the stress of not knowing what I have. Then again, it might be the symptom of something worse..

its taking a toll on everything I do, and i really regret not finding this forum sooner, and reading all the articles from Big Sexy and Big Boss Sam.. as i paused typing, i just noticed my thumb wobble, sigh...

preparing all the different scripts in my head to tell all the different people in case I test positive for anything..

i hope everything is ok, and its not any STD.. though in my mind, I feel that i probably caught something somewhere down the line..

I find it tiring how the worry changes time after time, test after test.. a first HIV, then Syphilis, then herpes (which i was told that a person shouldn't worry so much, unless symptoms such as herpes sores pop-up, and they can test this to rule out herpes, cause its not life threatening and doesn't change medical management).... Now its Hepatitis B.. Just a warning to everyone out there, its apparently 50-100 times more infectious than HIV..

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Originally Posted by sammyo

Let's go by the number. You've been doing this for 3 years. Assuming you do twice every week. That's count to 300 encounters. Assuming 10% of them is HIV positive (that's already very very big number). So, total is 30. The worse thing you did was BBBJ. Thats about 1 in 10000 chance of getting HIV. So, it's 30:10000 or 0.003 or 0.3%

So that makes Hep B chances, 15% - 30%??? without a test, I also don't know...

I guess that's life, test after test after test.. I'm praying a lot that I don't fail this one..

5ag1_Boar · #82 26-01-2012, 11:14 AM

Dude, how many times you want us to tell you? The symptoms you are displaying are NOT related to STDs.

Frankly, it looks more like nicotine withdrawal. Why not you also go check out the "I Quit" campaign and get yourself some help for that. http://www.hpb.gov.sg/iquit.aspx

You should still get yourself tested for STDs, but you need to chillax. You don't know any results yet, so you stress now also no use. You stress now and make plans for STD-positive results, but if the results come back negative, everything you have been stressing and thinking about is for nothing.

Even if something is going to come back positive, you stress now also useless because you can't do anything about it anyway. If you have caught it, you have caught it. You can only be prepared to accept the results, do what you have to do and accept the consequences.

Just get tested and while waiting, live life to the fullest (but don't cheong, else you reset you wait time) and be calm.

All this self-stress is affecting your health. Even if you don't have STD, the stress is likely ruining your health and making you shaky and wobbly and sweaty and what not, because you are probably not eating well and not sleeping well. Not to mention, you are probably suffering depression now. On top of that, cannot work properly, so kenna stress at work too. Stress is known to lower immunity.

You want to worry about STDs, why not worry whether you got cancer and other health problems in your body already from the smoking. Or from handphone radiation. Or from high cholesterol. Or from fatty liver. Or high blood pressure... so many damn things to worry about!!!

Can you see how YOU are making everything feel worse?

People with terminal illness that suffer the most are those who go on a depression tail spin. Those with a positive and happy outlook tend to suffer less and sometimes outlive the doctors estimations by a fair bit.

stupiderthanu · #83 26-01-2012, 02:15 PM

I've been beginning to understand you pov SagiBoar.. i know what you mean, but the wait for the testing date.. that's killing me..

xiaoquan · #84 27-01-2012, 03:00 AM

Some nothing to do person zapped me this with no nick. No balls to leave down name

"congrats on contracting HIV, due deserving retribution for u".

Anyway, I thought is a better thing to go for a 2nd testing to keep myself clear from all these negative thoughts. I went and did the test and came out negative. 9 months after
the first test. I don't chiong frequent. Only like 2-3 times out of curiosity.

Surprisingly, after this 2nd test. My mind became clearer and my dry mouth is no longer pestering me. Maybe due to fear or anxiety?

Thamtham · #85 27-01-2012, 11:14 PM

Si Bei Lo so lor...

Go check to clear any doubts...worry also no use.

peanut123 · #86 28-01-2012, 06:47 PM

Holy shit, you are still here whining away ??? Grow the fuck up. How many times do the bros here have to hold your hand and console you like the fucking baby that you are ???

Almost an entire month of non-stop self-pitying groveling is really pathetic, with bros offering you 3 freaking pages of advice and consolation, and all you do is grovel and look for even more imaginary problems ??? WTF ??? All you did is put your dick into a pussy, not into a vat of toxic nuclear waste, so stop with the self-pitying. You are seriously pissing me off.

Jeez, just be a monk if fucking a girl worries you so much. What a pathetic whiny ass.

Quote:

Originally Posted by stupiderthanu

wait for the 3 month mark and test AFA, i suppose..

And then full test at DSC, i guess..

I'm getting so sick and tired of worrying already.. the twitching that I feel a number of times everyday may be due to the stress of not knowing what I have. Then again, it might be the symptom of something worse..

its taking a toll on everything I do, and i really regret not finding this forum sooner, and reading all the articles from Big Sexy and Big Boss Sam.. as i paused typing, i just noticed my thumb wobble, sigh...

preparing all the different scripts in my head to tell all the different people in case I test positive for anything..

i hope everything is ok, and its not any STD.. though in my mind, I feel that i probably caught something somewhere down the line..

I find it tiring how the worry changes time after time, test after test.. a first HIV, then Syphilis, then herpes (which i was told that a person shouldn't worry so much, unless symptoms such as herpes sores pop-up, and they can test this to rule out herpes, cause its not life threatening and doesn't change medical management).... Now its Hepatitis B.. Just a warning to everyone out there, its apparently 50-100 times more infectious than HIV..

So that makes Hep B chances, 15% - 30%??? without a test, I also don't know...

I guess that's life, test after test after test.. I'm praying a lot that I don't fail this one..

sammyboyfor · #87 29-01-2012, 06:55 AM

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Originally Posted by stupiderthanu

I guess that's life, test after test after test.. I'm praying a lot that I don't fail this one..

Why don't you just kill yourself to end the misery.

vscelwan · #88 29-01-2012, 12:05 PM

I wish very hard TS have HIV and STD...naibee till here like tcss to waste our time

CyanogenMod · #89 29-01-2012, 09:45 PM

TS, at first you worried about HIV, next you worried about STD, next is what again?

you seems like just want people to encourage you, to pamper you, to care for you. Is that your real motive?
To me you don't sound like a season cheongster. You really cheong so much?
STD sure got symptom relation to your cock. And i'm sure you don"t have as you didn't mentioned before. So WHY and WHAT are you worrying???

stupiderthanu · #90 31-01-2012, 11:58 AM

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Originally Posted by CyanogenMod

To me you don't sound like a season cheongster. You really cheong so much?
STD sure got symptom relation to your cock. And i'm sure you don"t have as you didn't mentioned before. So WHY and WHAT are you worrying???

i wish i could turn back time and not do all those things that i did. I'm just very worried about it that's all.

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Originally Posted by vscelwan

I wish very hard TS have HIV and STD...naibee till here like tcss to waste our time

and please do not curse me like that. i'm sorry to offend, but all these things i did on my own without anyone knowing or suspecting. this forum has been one of the few ways i can let it out without doing anything stupid to myself. i'm sorry to offend those seasoned ones, i'm just afraid that's all.

i'm sorry.. don't think i'll be posting anymore..