📖 The Journal of Iris 📖

[itchyDICK]

Originally Posted by Iryiris

For those who like me, watch 溏心风暴3, will heard of this song at end of episode 10 where Venus had dinner with Nic and his wife & daughter came over to find him. Venus felt some disappointment within her as she started to fond in him. Of cuz later part of the story, she becomes his mistress and more dramas occurs. It my 1st time heard of this song and i don't know why, i felt so related to it especially that scene. I did experienced such thing before but I'm not the mistress. It just some sort of relationship turned out i had feeling for him. We were no longer in contacts as he thought i no longer exist in this world. It pretty complicated and some might said drama. If I able to, will share the story of us but i afraid the emotion will come back as, i still learning to let go this memory, totally.

Well, this is the song, Danny Cope - Don't Say Goodbye.

https://www.xiami.com/song/177230467...D9990B3D51A534

I like the song too, the song bring back some sad memories with an ex of mine. Anyway, don’t write if it’s too emotional for you. Learn to let go and you will be happier. Have a good weekend. Cheers.

[Iryiris]

Thanks, hope u have slowly get over. Still trying to let go though, it takes time

Originally Posted by itchyDICK

I like the song too, the song bring back some sad memories with an ex of mine. Anyway, don’t write if it’s too emotional for you. Learn to let go and you will be happier. Have a good weekend. Cheers.

[itchyDICK]

Originally Posted by Iryiris

Thanks, hope u have slowly get over. Still trying to let go though, it takes time

If I can learn to let go, I believe so can you. Cheers sister and jia you.

[Iryiris]

I mentioned before that before i relate my own encounter, i will show 2 things 1st. I have begun this thread due to my saga and it happened on the same day my dad was admitted to hospital. To some, they might think it just another drama to cover my saga or whatever you call it. Another is i did mention before the reason i entered this field, was due to my ex bf's debts. Attached are the evidences. 1 is my dad's check up on suspected prostate issue and another is 1 of my debts that i still handle with.





This is not the only debt i have to clear. There's another 2 more too which add up more amounts. It is even more than what you see but I have cleared quite a big part of it and 2 banks officially cleared off. So now i left with 3 banks. I not trying to prove anything here. I just wanna put assurance especially my clients, I'm not here to tell soap operas or lie to get the money. I didn't showed my debts to anyone before even close friends. This is my 1st and the last to show here.

My Ex - How we Began

I will start my encounter 1st off about my ex bf. We knew each other from this site called Friendster. It something like Facebook. The site if I'm not wrong already closed down. We didn't started off straight and all along we were just chatting when we were free and we exchanged contacts after that. After like a year or so, that's 1 day he initialed a meet up and i decided to meet him. I did have some feeling for him even though we haven't met and just via messaging. So the day came and we met for coffee and followed by clubbing with his friends. He initialed to develop the friendship to another level and that's where we were together.

At first he treated me well but he liked to show affection even in public but I'm the type that doesn't like to show whatever affection in the public. At times i could sensed he was unhappy cos i would just walked away when he wanted to hug or kissed in public. He did describe me as someone being hot and cold which he couldn't figured out at all. I realised I might not suit the style of relationship he wanted and started to drift too. Til 1 fine day, we had some arguments and i initialed a broke up. He started to throw nasty words on me saying I must be seeing other guy behind his back (he always thought he was right everytime we quarreled). After we broke up for some times, that's 1 night he SMS me asking do i wanna join him to club. I replied nope. Then he asked since we broke up, can we become god brother and sister relation. No wonder he had so many god sisters lol. My answer to him was i already have a brother and he is my biology one. Why should i have another one for. I think he gave up talking to me lol. So our relationship became friends. That's 1 particular night, he came to look for me after my clubbing session. We went to a nearby park to chichat (don't think otherwise ok lol). After the chitchat, he sent me home. we were holding each other hands throughout in the cab. After i aligned, i don't know why, i felt a connection at that moment. We started to message daily and he did confess he felt a special connection on that night too. And soon, we were back again. Our 1st patched back date, was to spend a night in the hotel lol. Don't need me to elaborate what happened in the room lol. This time, i knew i really had fell for him.

Everything were all so sweet and he gave me the TLC. Each lovemaking were so connected and the chemistry and bonding were all so fine. Good things don't last i guess. A relationship I thought i had found true love but didn't know i stepped onto land mine and the beginning of nightmares will soon happened.

>>>To be continued......

[Iryiris]

Yup, hopefully i can totally let it go.

Originally Posted by itchyDICK

If I can learn to let go, I believe so can you. Cheers sister and jia you.

[Iryiris]

Continue from previous chapter.....

My Ex - Here Comes The Nightmares

After like 2 months together, I realised his temper was getting bad each day. He would not messaged me for days sometimes and as a gf, i would asked him what happened to him. But, ended up, he would just told me off. Saying that he was very stressed and don't disturb him. I told him that I was his gf and i couldn't even messaged him to ask him too, ridiculous right? He would just said it in harsh way he was in debts and if i was a gf, don't talked so much and just helped him will do. He had been gambled in soccer and he had lost quite a sum of money. Back then it like few Ks, i couldn't remembered the exact one for the 1st time. I was working full time office back then and my earning was not much. I guess he was in desperate state and he said that unless i could get the money if not let's just break off. I was in love with him and i couldn't bear to see him suffering. I ended up being desperately too, ya without reason. I did ask around from my friends for help but i guess i was too truthful and told them it was for my bf. So ended up, they wouldn't wanna borrow me. He scolded me for being honest and should gave better excuses than saying the truth. While i still trying ways, he told me that he had another alternative choice but it would be a very tough one. His ex gf came from rich family and she willing to help him. But, on 1 condition. He had to go back to her. Upon hearing that, my mind went blank. So what it meant? He wanted to go back to her and gave me up cos of money? He said he was in dilemma too. He loved me but yet at that point of time, he didn't know what to do. He said gave him a day to think about it as his ex gave him the deadline til the next day. Speaking of this ex gf of his, i actually did bump onto her before.......

His Ex Gf
This happened before his episode of debts.

It was a Saturday night. I had programme with my 2 bff and we decided to go to Orchard. While i was on my way in train, I messaged L (let's call my ex L). He had programme with his friends at Tanjong Pagar to watch soccer match. Initially my friends and me wanted to go Bugis but last min, we went to Orchard. So he thought i would be at Bugis. I told him to remember his dinner and he said the same too and would see me tomorrow (we were meeting the next day). So i met up my friends and they were excited to know about my new beau. We were chatting, giggling while we were window shopping. I think either i told my friends or something came across my mind, scarli i will bump onto my bf at Orchard. While we were (my friends and me) crossing the road to the other side (At the junction which now known as H&M side), somehow i caught a familiar sight that made me figuring out did my eyes play trick on me. Somehow this familiar sight were passing by me and i turned to look. It was L and he seemed to talking to someone by his side and i tried to catch a glimpse. It was a lady but i couldn't see her face. As there were crowds i couldn't see were they holding hands. We were in the middle of the road so i couldn't stopped. No, he didn't saw me at all. My mind went blank. I felt my throat was stuck. My friends were ahead of me. I decided to turn and looked to double confirm of what i saw just now. Yes, it was him. He was holding her hand. I still couldn't see her face but from her backview, she was skinnier than me. But for dressing, she's more casual then me. According to my friends, i looked better than her (my friends said, not me lol). I was dumbfounded at the scene. This kinda thing only happened in dramas or movies but didn't expected it happened to me. My friends came to me as i stopped in middle of the path. They were asking what happened and 1 of them asked, don't tell me so zhun you saw your bf. I pointed at L and the lady direction and said softly, that's him. My friends were stunned at the sight. 1 of them said what are u waiting for, approach them and question him! I didn't know why, i didn't have the courage to do that. I was feeling heartbroken. I gave him a call while looking at them. He felt the vibration of his HP. He took out a bit from his right pocket (his other hand still holding the gal) and peeped at it. He placed it back again without picking up. My heart was shattered into million pieces. I couldn't believed this was happening to me. I really hoped it was a dream. I felt weak. I didn't know what should i do. I went to a bench, sat down and i cried my heart out in middle of Orchard. I didn't cared how passer by looked at me. My friends were consoling me. He messaged me asking I'm looking for him, sorry he was busy. I called him again but he didn't picked up. I messaged him asking where he was. He replied at tanjong pagar lor, thought he already told me. I replied was he sure he was at tanjong pagar. He said ya la, if i don't believe than don't lor. I told him i just saw him holding another gal's hand in orchard. Why he had to lie. He denied he didn't and i must be seeing wrongly. I said no, that confirmed was him. He called me and i could figured out he was in the toilet making that call. The 1st thing he did was what i want, he was at Tanjong Pagar not at Orchard. I told him off to stop lying please. I even described his attire. He actually paused awhile and said he's not wearing a black top, it was dark blue. Knn, it night time. Dark blue also looked like black for goodness sake. Than, he turned the table around at me. Asking why was i at orchard. Didn't i told him i was at Bugis. I said i cannot last min came to orchard. Orchard his father one is it. He was accusing me that i must be coming orchard with guy. Knn, 恶人先告状. I told him i was with my gfs if don't believe, we could cone over to where his location was and he could witnessed it. He was telling me off siao, 懒得理你 and hung up the call. My friends were shaking their heads. I messaged him telling him that i didn't wanna meet him the next day. Just cancelled. Meantime, i need a break from this. He said he still wanna see me the next day and please don't do that. But, i insisted i didn't wanna see him. I had no mood to continue whatever I supposed to do and went back home.

The next day he messaged me, asking still wanna meet. I replied nope. I need time to think over and might consider to end things. He said he wouldn't want to and wanted to meet me to explain what happened yesterday. He finally admitted that was him who i saw. I said why he had to deny and even lie. I wouldn't know he might be lying all the time while we were together. He kept wanted to meet me to explain so finally i gave in and we met at somewhere in the west. After we met, we went somewhere to settle our dinner. He told me the lady with him was actually his ex gf. She just broke off with her bf and wanted L to accompany her. I told him off accompanied her was that a need to hold her hand. He said she wanted to and he just did it for her assurance. I said she wanted to hold your hand you gave it to her. So if she wanted your dick, you gave it to her too wasn't it. He said no lor please. He didn't touched her beside holding her hand. Somehow deep inside me, i just find it hard to digest the whole thing. He kept apologised, asked for forgiveness blah blah blah and on benefit of doubt, i chosen to forgive him. Of cuz, things wouldn't be the same anymore and trust issue will surface again and again. Now thinking back, who knows the lady was his actual gf. Beside this, alot of doubts issues surfaced later part too that made me felt, i was used.
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Back to the debts issue.

The next day came and i went to work as usual. I have been waiting for his message the whole morning. So i decided to measaged him 1st. So i asked about his decision. And, his decision was.........

To be continued......

[AhKong69]

Setting up camp. Happy belated new year to OP and SBF folks on this thread

[Iryiris]

Originally Posted by AhKong69

Setting up camp. Happy belated new year to OP and SBF folks on this thread

Happy belated new year to u too. But, what is OP ah 🤔?

[Iryiris]

Hey peeps,

Went through my files and found this impromptu work i did the other time. I totally forgotten about it. As a thank you to everyone who showered me with encouragement and supports, i will show to you guys 1st. The reason i created this short slide was i trying to test this app actually. Together with 1 of my fave songs and also my ringtone, Symphony by Clean Bandit Feat. Zara Larsson. Hope you guys enjoy it.

https://vimeo.com/250127599?ref=em-v-share

[chaoturtle]

Nice clip and nice story. Though nth much sexual but Pls keep them coming in.

[GuoJins]

Camping for updates

[Iryiris]

Originally Posted by chaoturtle

Nice clip and nice story. Though nth much sexual but Pls keep them coming in.

Thanks for ur support. Hmmm, not much sexual for this story of mine as everytime we doing the same thing and he's a 5 mins sensation and that's all lol. How to write lol. Only that's 1 time we did like 5 or 7 times, i think it 5 times from 11am to abt 5 plus pm, we were like all dried up lol.

[KnowItAll]

like your story very much ts... nicely written & interesting... share more soon pls.

[Iryiris]

Originally Posted by KnowItAll

like your story very much ts... nicely written & interesting... share more soon pls.

Thanks for liking

[DJMixologist]

Wish you all the best. Put the past behind and come out stronger than ever! Cheers 😉