My attempt at sharing my experiences...

[Sen5eS]

Originally Posted by EnigmaofSorrow

Well Bro, I think you seriously overestimate me... I'm spending my time now reading other threads...

It's not estimating high or low ... just feel that you have a charmed life

[EnigmaofSorrow]

Originally Posted by Sen5eS

It's not estimating high or low ... just feel that you have a charmed life

Surprised you think that way Bro... if I had a charmed life. I wouldn't be in this self-created situation now...

[curiouslala]

Originally Posted by EnigmaofSorrow

Surprised you think that way Bro... if I had a charmed life. I wouldn't be in this self-created situation now...

Maybe its because he wanted ur adventurous life too?
I think there are few bro who wish to be in ur shoe..

[EnigmaofSorrow]

Originally Posted by curiouslala

Maybe its because he wanted ur adventurous life too?
I think there are few bro who wish to be in ur shoe..

Well sis, sometimes too much adventure and excitement is not good for health...

[waahaa]

Originally Posted by EnigmaofSorrow

Well sis, sometimes too much adventure and excitement is not good for health...

indeed, sometimes boring is good. but just for awhile

[curiouslala]

Originally Posted by EnigmaofSorrow

Well sis, sometimes too much adventure and excitement is not good for health...

Agreed.
But no adventure also boring.

Originally Posted by waahaa

indeed, sometimes boring is good. but just for awhile

I prefer to said it as stick to your comfort zone.. because sometimes, we really need not to find adventure ..

[Sen5eS]

Originally Posted by EnigmaofSorrow

Surprised you think that way Bro... if I had a charmed life. I wouldn't be in this self-created situation now...

At least you're still in 1 piece ... the things that happened to you only can make you stronger ? perhaps helps you learn ... even tho the price to pay might be high ... but you're still standing.

if you think it's a self-created situation, then it means it can be undone one way or another ... doing nothing and waiting isn't solving the situation.

Well ... maybe it's easier said than done but only you know best

[Sen5eS]

Too much of a good thing is bad ... that's what I was told ...

[mightly]

good boy? dun buff Bro E.. i always believe have 1st time sure got 2nd time..

[EnigmaofSorrow]

Originally Posted by mightly

good boy? dun buff Bro E.. i always believe have 1st time sure got 2nd time..

Believing doesn't mean it will happen. Unless you have first-hand experiences you would like to share?

[mightly]

Originally Posted by EnigmaofSorrow

Believing doesn't mean it will happen. Unless you have first-hand experiences you would like to share?

nah... my life is not so wonderful as you are..

[EnigmaofSorrow]

I admit. I am a horrible person. I have left a trail of hurt wherever I go.

No matter what I do, someone inevitably gets hurt. Whether it is a committed relationship or a fling, it never ends well.

Shirley - I had a chance at a normal relationship yet blew it when it became clear all I eanted was sex. I chased her away, she got pregnant with someone else's kid, eventually lost it. I rejected her when she wanted me back. Eventually, she left the country and is probably never coming back. I did reconnect with her recently over whatsapp. She's fine. Happily attached. Wishes we never went further than the sibling relationship we shared. Chapter closed.

Jenny - We never really had a problem relationship-wise anyway. She was, and maybe still is the only person who I have let in emotionally or otherwise. She is also happily attached now. And I would never do anything to compromise her happiness.

Nicole - A big regret. When I finally mustered the courage to check in on her, let's just say it did not go too well. To quote "When all I wanted was a relationship, all you wanted was sex, when all I wanted was sex, you wanted a relationship. I'll never forget what you did. Don't ever contact me again." I tried to apologise but was replied with her sister calling me up, and letting me listen to her cry. Well done.

R - It was never meant to be and never should have been. I fell for someone who would never have the same feelings for me. I would not call it love, for I know not what it is. But it made me realise I had emotions. It did not feel good. At all. What happened to the cold, emotionless me. Finding out I still had emotions and could be affected by them really hurt.

In the end, I guess retreating into my shell is the best option.

As with everything that has happened, there is no happy ending to this story. I inadvertently ended up hurting the only person who cared enough to bother about me. Perhaps there is really no hope for humanity any more.

She says words are cheap. But I am truly sorry.

The End.

[XDXDXD]

Bro E, have been a silent reader at your thread and didn't actually make any comments until now. I just wish to give my 2 cents worth. I honestly think you should stop dwelling at all the mistakes that you have made in the past. You regretted being someone like that, and i think that's a strong signal that you are ready to move on from all the mistakes. To err is human, but isn't it wiser to solve mistakes instead of letting it pull us down? Maybe it's your style to set up a very strong barrier before letting someone into your life, hence you often hurt the ones trying to bother about you. But instead of feeling bad, i just think that if someone really tries hard enough to break through your defenses, that's when you will fall very deeply in love. Don't ever give up on finding love, let it come naturally, i really sincerely believe that one day, you will find a someone whom you will be always brave enough to love. And till then, i wish you the best.

[FirstTimeUser]

Hi, bro. Its been some time since I last logged in, to comment or reply PMs, but I've been lurking on your thread. Your thread is the only thread that I really keep track of when I surf sbf anonymously. Really sorry to hear that things came to this. I've always been "cheering" for Shirley and subsequently Jenny (and even Diane for a certain period of time) as you kept your posts updated.

I guess its probably the 'thrill' of going after girls that makes you reject Shirley or Jenny (probably things that 'come easy' are less valued) and go after Nicole or 'R'. If this point of view is incorrect pls excuse me. Hope you can find someone in future that you like and have the same feelings for you. Cheers and all the best bro..

[Sen5eS]

well ... if you continue to avert yourself from the issue ... then you're gonna continue to hurt who ever comes your way then ...

Everyone one of them is a chance for you to figure out what you should have done or shouldn't have done ... I've been told sorry is cheap ... you have to show that you are (in terms of actions) and there are many ways to do that ...

You could go hide in your shell ... you may return causing more grieve or just end up being alone in a dark cold corner ...

Sigh ... yeah ... talk is cheap ...

Hang in there ...